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The thought that springs to mind today is just because something is broke doesn't mean it can not be fixed.
I guess that is how I feel right now, broken down! In a metaphorical sence I have torn yself down and now is the time to re-build.
Time to stop the record from skipping in the ame spot and let the rest of the song be heard.
Maybe all this time I have been like a bottle of wine, waiting for just the right moment to open the cork! Scared it maybe vinegar and not the sweet nectar it should be. But how will I ever know if I allow all these fears to prevent me from doing so.
Fear and feeling broken have held me back for too long. Best way to conquer fear is to face it. Best way to fix what is broken, one pc at a time.
I have fought and survived a lot of battles in my 41yrs. So it's time to suit up and fight this one too!
A side note: I am so pissed off right now, worked up the courage to go to the stupid resume writing workshop, got all the way there and it was cancelled. 3 freak'n hrs I gave myself the "you can do this" talk and for what?? Absolutely and completely nothing. However not going to waste the day, I've made a doctors appointment for my meds. Might as well get something done..
Okay must relax... Must calm my anxious, angry, snarly ass down.. Deep breath in.. Deep breath out.. Count to 10.. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Uuuummmmmmm !! :p
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