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Well.. I'm feeling physically better today, but now I'm going through the emotional side. Just feel empty (in a emotional way)
Yesterday I spent the day on the couch, did not leave my apartment as I was Leary of going anywhere because I felt so weak. Usually this would have driven me up the wall, but not yesterday I was content to stay in!
The only really bad thing that I ate was spoonfulls of pnb, it was all I wanted. several people have told me that when you crave something that badly it is usually your body telling you something is missing from your diet. I half heartedly believe this, but the other half is it's my comfort food. Something I dive into when I am in an unstable state!
Today however is another day, time to put myself on auto pilot and do what needs to be done without thinking too much about it. In a sence dress myself in armour and put on the mask. The mask that allows people to believe that I am okay, but underneith I'm not.
I will work on this, but for now I need to ride out the internal storm. As long as I watch what I eat and continue to put one foot infront of the other. I will be okay, things will be okay!
Thank you to my buddies for their comments yesterday! Much love and respect!
Diet Calendar Entries for 25 July 2012:
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1341 kcal
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Fat: 31.45g | Prot: 39.54g | Carb: 241.18g.
Breakfast: Rye Bread, Peanut Butter, Jam Preserves, Water, Lemon, White Sugar (Granulated or Lump), No Calorie Sweetener (Packets), Coffee. Lunch: Rye Bread, Cucumber (with Peel), Calorie Wise Balsamic Vinaigrette, Water. Dinner: Quinoa, Young Green Onions (Tops Only), Broccoli Flower Clusters, Water, Blue Menu Celeb Margarine, Tomatoes. Snacks/Other: Navels Oranges, Bananas, Water. more...
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1827 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 1 hour, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour, Desk Work - 7 hours, Resting - 7 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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