chryssm's Journal, 18 January 2014

great job  

Good morning! I have not been on here much in the last few days but I have gotten the emails so I am now trying to get back into my routine. I love reading your journal. The challenge you are talking about doing...I just say DO IT. I have done 3 of them in the last 6 years and my new one starts TOMORROW!!!! I have been waiting for it to begin so I can be even more strict...discipline is not my best quality but I want to change that. I have talked 4 of my friends into doing it with me so it will be really good but I am still accountable for only myself. This group meets once a week to workout with our trainer (Jillian type...ugh) and then its up to us to workout either with her or with others or alone 4 other times during the week, we have to keep a food journal and we wigh in once a week as well....The winner gets $500 of personal training . I won it the very first time I did it 6 years ago....I want to be as successful this time with the weigh loss and inches lost...to be honest I don't care about winning the challenge...just winning in my efforts. So...hahaha back to you...YES DO IT!!!!!My official weigh in for the competition is tomorrow night...I know its gonna be ugly but I will deal with whatever it is and then....IT'S ON! I hope to get on here a lot because I really do need the support. I am so sorry you had to do the whole funeral thing...I have done a lot of them recently as well...seems the older you get...its just more and more...but I guess its part if the getting older thing. Good job on keeping yourself on track with the food situation....that's tough at functions....my biggest challenge is alcohol.. :( I really want to cut it way down...Im not sure I can cut it out all the way...I just want to be successful so if it gets in the way...I will give it up for awhile...but really don't want to..lol Today is my last day to eat without worrying about the weigh in...my beginning number will reflect everything I have done or not done in the last 2 years...I can't wait to succeed and reach my goal...thanks for allowing me to be a part of your journey too :) 

You did a great job under a stressful situation! 

Sorry its taking me so long to respond ... busy couple days !! That's great that you found some friends to do it with you. Some of my co-workers are going to do the challenge too. Actually today is the day I have to go signup, hoping I have time at some point in my day, if not I will just go sign up as soon as I get off. I had another girl at work ask me if I wanted to do some workout classes with her in the evening, so I told her I would. Trying to find as much support and things to motivate me as I can. I hope all is going well for you too. I look forward to hearing about your challenge as well. We can do this : )  

Last night was the first class...my muscles were like "REALLY????what the hell???" hahaha Even though it was tough...I was so glad to be starting!!! I felt awesome afterwards and had a great night sleep and feel really good today too :) So far so good with logging my food...I even had a salad for breakfast today with hard bolied egg on it...delicious! My body is already reacting to healthy eating...I just FEEL good...looking forward to my next class on Wednesday night....I have to get at least 45 minutes of movement in today...I think I will do some abs work on the floor and some light lifting etc while watching my show. I agree with you when you say to get as involved and getting as much support as possible....I also want to start doing stuff outside in the evenings but recently its been a bit cold for that...I prefer it to be about 45 degrees or more....but I will do whatever it takes!!!! That's what its all about right? We did something last night called "Tabata" have you ever done that? It was pretty cool. 

No , never heard of Tabata ... Do tell ??? Its almost 6 and I am literally just sitting down for the first time today.( other than driving ) ... Work was busy and then I promised the kids we would go get haircuts ... I slipped for the first time and we went to subway , really cause my son had to be at his weigh lifting for football and we were outta time. I feel BLAHHHHH cause I have not had ANY bread in weeks. I ordered a turkey sub and Yummmmm it was good . The calories were low but I wish I hadn't eaten bread. Oh well , back to NO BREAD tomorrow !  

Good morning...snow here!!! We don't get it very often so its really pretty. May not have to go to work today....So Tabata is kinda cool...you have a recording with music but someones voice comes on and tells you when to start a certain exercise and when to stop...then you relax for a couple seconds then hit it hard again.....you change to about 8 exercises and listen to directions...kinda cool...Its amazing how sore I am...but I actually think it feels good :) I know what you mean about eating bread...I have been good...today is day 3 and I haven't hadf any starches and I feel really good....don't beat yourself up...Subway is not the worst choice you could have made.....just make up for it today and remember how yucky you felt after eating it...no matter how tasty it was. My bead habits are usually in the evening and usually not food funny enough...I would rather have a few glasses of wine and some smokehouse almonds than dinner....I know its empty calories with the wine but it is my treat....some nights I do better than others....if it starts to slow my weight loss I will cut it out all together during the week...keeping an eye on the goal!!!!! 

We have snow leftover from yesterday , and the temperature here this morning was -8 . Kids have a school delay . I just checked the 10 day weather forecast and it is supposed to be below 20 degrees for the next 10 day here. I really just cant wait for spring to get here so that I can do outdoors stuff with the kids, I am always way more active in warm weather . That tabata sounds really cool. And I hear ya about the wine , I often have a glass or 2 in the evening also . I have just been trying to leave room for it in my calories for the day . Hopefully that cant be too bad. Its hard to give up everything we enjoy ! I weigh in once a week and honestly I keep wishing for a really big week where I lose 5 or more. But I have lost 3 pounds a week that last 2 weeks, that seems like a steady number so I am happy as long as I keep losing that. I keep telling myself even if I only lost 1 pound a week that would be 50 in a year, but its so hard to thuink of your goal being reached so far in the future. But its better than staying the same or gaining more. I really just want this goal for my health. I see some of my friends that are a few years older than me starting to have real medical problems that are things that probably wouldn't be happening with a healthier lifestyle and that scares me. I am a nurse and I see the effects that being overweight have all the time, I just want to use this time to get healthy . 

where do you live? I am in Virginia Beach, Va. we hardly ever get snow...so we like it when we do...but it shuts down the whole city even with just a couple of inches...I am off today which is great...the roads are all ice. I have been a "Nanny and Household Manager" for the better part of 30 years. You being a nurse...how awesome....I know its rewarding no matter how trying at times :) I also think you all shoul make way more money for that profession...I have a few friends that are nurses too. I agree with wanting the warmer days to exercise outside but I also don't want them just yet because my plan is to get to my goal BEFORE spring!!!! Hence joining the bootcamp and kicking it up a notch. Congratulations on 3 lbs a week! That's awesome!!!! I know the big drops are nice but we don't live at the biggest loser compound (that would be pretty cool I think) Anyway....I haven't gotten through my first full week yet so we will see on Monday what the ol scale says. Once I reach goal weight...I weigh every day....or try to in order to maintain within 5 lbs (obviously I didn't do that the last time argh) but I will this time...but for now...weighing once a week makes it so I am not obsessing! I always allow for the wine wiggle in my calorie number too....I have been logging the wine too...I have to! actually that reminds me I have to complete yesterdays logging. Don't look at it taking 50 weeks to lose what you want silly....just look at it like Hey if I lose 10-12 lbs a month that is an awesome accomplishment....small goals are not as frustrating. I agree with the older we get the health issues we have....being over weight makes everything a lot more dangerous. I am 50 and plan to have everything including my weight where I want it before I am 51 which is July 1st. 

I have to admit I have a lot of risk factors in my family history and ever since I went to nursing school ( I just graduated 2 years ago ) I started realizing just how unhealthy it is. Not as if I didn't know before but when you literally study it all and understand the hows and whys it makes you see it even more. I had gestational diabetes during my last pregnancy and my mother was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes so I know that I am at risk. My numbers were borderline high and when I started with my healthy eating I have checked my blood sugar several times in the morning and the numbers are normal now. So I know this is necessary for my health and the long run. I also had a scare alittle over a year ago and my blood pressure was so high I ended up in the emergency room. I hate that I am only 33 and have to take blood pressure medicine everyday. My dr said that he believes I can reverse everything with weight loss and healthy lifestyle so I am really trying. I don't usually tell anyone any of that . It makes me feel really bad. I have a lot of anxiety problems too and I am trying really hard to learn to handle that better. Its really weird cause I have such a stressful job and I thrive under that pressure , its so rewarding and I love it . Its my personal life that makes me so anxiouos. I got divorced in 2008 and my ex-husband walked away from my kids completely. I have accomplished a lot such as nursing school but I give my kids everything in life and it takes a major toll on me. And I will admit its partially my own fault because I am a total control freak when it comes to that so I refuse to let people who may be willing help me. I just have to find a way to balance it all without sacrificing my own health. This is crazy but it has literally been over 2 years since I have been away from my kids for a weekend or any kind of getaway. My aunt and uncle recently offered to keep them for a weekend so I could get away with my boyfriend and have some ME time. I really need to take them up on the offer. It would probably be such a relief but it always seems like the kids have things going on and I feel guilty to be away from them. I need to just schedule the weekend trip and DO IT . Would probably make a world of difference .  

Yes.....you need to take more time for you....make yourself way more of a priority than you have been...obviously that has not been working for you...so like I tell myself..."When things don't go right.........Go left" :) You have to make some changes...sounds like you have started with your health which is great but the other stuff has to go hand and hand. Your kids at this point KNOW you are there for them...let them do some things without you. Don't let anyone derail your efforts towards your goals...start exercising...you will feel so much better and it really does help with anxiety. I have high blood pressure and take meds too but my doctor said mine is not weight related because even when thin it didn't change....its hereditary for me....but I am 25 lbs over weight and that doesn't help anything. Most of all...it makes me a home body because I don't like myself and I can't fit in anything in my closet....I am changing that.I am determined! I am divorced but have no kids...I am a breast cancer and MRSA survivor and I have pretty much kept myself really healthy till recently...so I am reversing it. You are young...get control of the weight and health now...believe me its so much harder when you're older...I had a great food day today...and went in the snow and ice to my bootcamp workout tonight so I am feeling pretty damn accomplished right now...Its one day at a time...so that's the way I tackle it....you should too....don't overwhelm yourself....baby steps in the right direction :)  

Don't worry I have no intention of quacking my journey towards HEALTH. Im glad you made it to your bootcamp even with the snow and ice. I am going to join the gym that is about a mile from my house but I gotta wait til my next payday to do it. Kinda overdid it with Christmas and don't have the extra $ for the membership til payday. Until then I am just gonna keep doing the workout videos I have at home. That's gotta be better than nothing. And I have been making myself take the steps at work instead of the elevator. I go up at least 5-10 times a day. Every bit of activity has to help.Parking FARRRRR away everywhere I go. I know they are little things but they all have to add up. Our temps are dropping to below zero again here and it looks like it may stay that way for a week or so. Ugghhhh so outside is not happening. I hate this cabin fever feeling. Everything will get easier once the weather breaks and I can go do outside stuff.