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I ate too much tonight. I feel super shitty. Tomorrow is going to a be a fresh start, though.
And I am going to make sure and CONTROL my eating. Especially at dinner. Dinner always gets me because I'm super hungry.
I'm going to try exercising more days a week.
Instead of an hour of cardio three days a week, i'll do 30-45 mins for five days a week, and toning and stretching 3 times a week. Saturday and Sunday will be my complete days off to make a full recovery. That will be nice.
I feel like crying right now... Mainly because I am so impatient. I want this weight to come off NOW. I'm sick and tired of being fat, unhealthy, uncomfortable, and just feeling ugly.
I'm tired of living through a constant struggle.
And, I also miss my boyfriend/fiance a whole lot.
I'll be so relieved when i am in a 'maintenance' way of living. Where I just need to balance calories burned vs calories consumed.
I'll be able to exercise because I want to, and not bust my ass because I HAVE TO.
There are some days where I just feel like i am killing myself. And yet, i am not seeing the results I want.
But... I've come too far to give up. The end is in site.
When i look at myself in the mirror, i can see my ideal body.
My thighs and stomach have gotten smaller in the last few weeks. I cant wait until my stomach is completely gone!!!!!!!!!!
If only my thighs werent so jiggly, and my stomach wasnt so fat.
I need to TONE both of them.
I'm going to fucking cry tears of joy when this is all over. When I am able to look in the mirror and know i have WORKED SO HARD to love what i see and be comfortable in my very own skin.
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