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Doing better today...Thanks to those of you that sent a kind word. Sometimes when all you can see is the dark of the well you are in, god sends down a rope, or a hand to help you out...thats what all of you were whether you knew it or not. A hand to pull me out of my darkest place. And I appreciate that more than any of you will ever know. For people I don't really know, I couldn't be more thankful for any of you...=)
So, I had hit a small plateau for a few days and it was in a way both discouraging and good at the same time. Discouraging because I have gotten used to seeing the scale go down, even if minutely. Good because it didn't go up either. It just hung out at the same weight to a tenth of a pound. I didn't really sweat it though cause I know everyone hits a plateau. I actually used it to start eating a bit more. Eating more feels good. I am not worrying as much about my blood sugar now as I seem to have a little bit more wiggle room with it. I don't crash as hard or as suddenly with more calories. I have been playing a bit too with eating small amounts of the foods that I REALLY crave so I don't crash and burn (ie Binge like a fool on chips ahoy or cherry garcia). That feels good too. A month into my diet and it now feels like second nature to eye food and know about what the calorie count is and whether or not it is worth it. It's nice to be able to say no to something but also nice to be able to say ok but just a half portion. LOL I actually told a waiter the other day to go ahead and box half my meal before he brought it out...he looked at me like he thought I was crazy but I just smiled sweetly and told him I was trying to save him a trip later...He still looked like he thought I was crazy but he smiled and did as I asked. Suddenly a new lifestyle doesn't seem so awful or out of my reach. I feel stronger and more alive. I am in control for the first time in a long time and wow does it feel great!
Diet Calendar Entry for 24 August 2010:
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999 kcal
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Fat: 47.20g | Prot: 40.50g | Carb: 106.80g.
Breakfast: 90 Calorie Chewy Bars - Chocolate. Lunch: Curly Fries (Small), Pecan Chicken Salad Wrap. Dinner: Tortellini Primavera Parmesan. more...
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