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Some days are definitely more of a struggle than others. I'm definitely feeling better these past few weeks…my skin feels better, I feel like I'm losing weight…but then I start to think of how much I have to lose…and of course want to lose it immediately, which gets me down.
I have to keep reminding myself that it took a while to put on…and its going to take some time to take it off, I'm not going to be thin overnight. I really need to figure out how to keep myself from gaining weight back once I reach my goal….again. I have the tendency to get obsessed with dieting, and working out….I lose 50-60 pounds, struggle to get down to a size 8 (not a manageable size for my body to maintain it seems, even at 5'6)…but all my life I've always been the heavier girl, but I've been blessed with the fact that people can never guess my weight because I "carry it well". Even when I got down to a 135, people thought I was 120…I guess my bones are heavier…who knows. All I know is I lose the weight, tell myself that I'll never gain that weight back again, get rid of all my "fat" clothes…and before I know it, I'm back up in weight again, and buying new clothes! ARGH! I can't seem to find my "trigger" that makes me feel like I need to eat. I am a very happy person, but I seem to eat even then! Friends say they think I just like the taste of food…which I do. Its just all very frustrating! You always hear there has to be a trigger that sets it off…I just want to figure out what mine is so I can turn mine off.
Diet Calendar Entries for 03 April 2008:
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1309 kcal
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Fat: 30.45g | Prot: 49.00g | Carb: 228.13g.
Breakfast: Fiber One, Weight Watchers Yogurt. Lunch: Cindy's Kitchen, pecan, cranberries, goat cheese. Dinner: bamboo shoots, shrimp 21-25 ct, water chestnuts, green bean, broccoli, Short Grain Brown. Snacks/Other: watermelon, Fat Free Tapioca Pudding, gum. more...
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2628 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Since we have been good for the past 10 days, i feel like progress is being made, but i too am frustrated and want to lose all the weight at once! Oh well...not gonna happen...think that setting a trigger once the goal weight is acheived and trying to keep on the good eating kick for the rest of life is the only way to not gain a ton of weight back. keep it up!
03 Apr 08 by member: gbags
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So I am new to this whole website. What kind of exercising do you do???
03 Apr 08 by member: mandielee
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What I have typically done in the past when I've lost weight, is follow the "Body for Life" work out plan that Bill Phillips published...but I don't follow the eating plan, because, although it works fantastic, its not a way of life to keep up past the 3 months they ask you to do it (too bland for me...you can only have so much boiled chicken, plain green beans and brown rice!). I do however love following the weight watcher flex points plan, and incorporating the work out from the Body For Life book (and if you see the photos from that book and think there is no way...I can attest that the before and after photos are real, and can be obtained in the 3 months he promises if you follow strict).
03 Apr 08 by member: Cheeks
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Thanks, I will look into that! I am trying to tone up now that I am close (even though somedays I feel way far from) my goal weight! I carry all my weight upper body which makes for it hard to be happy with the weight loss I have accomplished...88lbs seems like a lot but I am still not happy with the way I look. Bummer...I hope someday the self esteem will come!
03 Apr 08 by member: mandielee
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88 Pounds is AMAZING!!! Self esteem is something you're going to have to work on, it takes time to rebuild and to see yourself differently. I was in a horrible marriage for 8 years (with him for 15), went through a divorce, gained a ton of weight. My self esteem was at an all time low. I made the decision to lose weight and exercise. I remember when I got myself down to a size 6 (from a 16), I still felt fat! My friend took me shopping, and held up a dress. I said, ummm, that won't fit me…that’s too small. She said…try this on its going to fit you! I said, wrong…it won't fit! She said, you know what, try this on here and now, and if it does fit, then you are going to try on anything I hand you from now on. Hahah I took that bet. Well…it fit…and not only did it fit over my clothes, it was loose too…sooo I lost the bet. That’s when I realize hrmmmm, I'm not looking at myself in a very positive way, and I changed my opinion from there on out.
Hang in there, what you have done so far is inspiring! Good luck! =)
03 Apr 08 by member: Cheeks
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Thanks, I do have to work on self esteem. I have an amazing boyfriend of 2 1/2 years who still gets upset with me because I make little comments about being fat...he gets really mad and I guess that if I stop making fat comments about myself maybe I will feel better. I have never been one to take compliments, it is hard for me. I can totally relate to your story about shopping...my sister and I went shopping and she finds the cutest close for me to try on and I always put up a fight saying they are to small...usually when I try them on they are to big...it is hard to see myself thin...even when I look in the mirror I still see the 228lbs girl I once was! Thank you for your response, you have helped a lot!
03 Apr 08 by member: mandielee
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I think you hit it right on the head! Try and do your best to not put yourself down. My husband (just got married in August! =)) is absolutely amazing and the love of my life...and he compliments me constantly. I use to feel really uncomfortable hearing them....but now...I just say thank you....and you know what...I actually believe him. =) Enjoy your new body, appreciate all that you have done to get it, and be happy with yourself.
03 Apr 08 by member: Cheeks
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We're often harder on ourselves than anyone else. It's frustrating and it's a hard habit to break. You'd never tell your best friend that she's fat... so you shouldn't be saying it to yourself either! I do the same thing. It's like I know all my own faults and I'm so quick to point them out or dwell on them. Just remember that you're doing an excellent job! You're doing what you need to do and somehow, you'll figure out what's causing your weight to go up and down. Keep your chin up! You're on the right track! : )
05 Apr 08 by member: Jenny-Any-Dots
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