amandapanda

hey. im here to record my progress. i dont feel at all comfortable talking about my weight or my diet with friends or family so i decided to join this website and see if i can receive and offer some support!
if you need someone to talk to, dont hesitate at ALL to message me!
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so i actually havent written anything about myself... so here i go. im 20 years old and ive always been on sports teams. until about two years ago... basically when i started college and stopped playing sports. add into the mix my always existant compulsive overeating and you get weight gain. i used to go to overeaters anonymous meetings, but my school schedule clashes with them now.. :(
the thing is that i know EXACTLY what i should be eating... i m a pretty good cook... and i have healthy stuff at home. thats not the problem. the problem is ME. and thats the worst problem you can have. i feel like when i fail, its all my fault (and it is...).
so i actually went to a eating disorder therapist and on the second session she told me that my problem was gonna get worse unless i went to a psychiatrist to get some medication subscribed. that REALLY scared me because as far as i know, there is no 'magic pill' to block out compulsive thoughts about food. so i guess the medication would just slow my thoughts down or make me zone out or something.
well im not ready to do that. im not ready to give up yet. i want to try this out and see if i can succeed with some support and record keeping.

i dont know anyone on this website, so if you get a friend request from me, its just because im hoping to get some support and also offer some support in return! i think we all joined this community to help ourselves but also to help each other out. i dont want to do this alone and im sure you dont either...

well write me if you have any questions. im sure i left a whole bunch of stuff out because its kinda late and im tired.

:P allright. talk to you soon, i hope!