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Having a hard time today. I want to binge eat but I have kept it to dry-roasted peanuts and 5 fudge stripe cookies. I also had a chicken breast and eggs and bacon, sugar-free jello. Its not the end of the world.
Yesterday I worked out really well and was so hungry I had a regular dinner. What's a regular dinner? Too many carbs. Cream of mushroom soup, a salad, and a chicken breast panini. It is frustrating that if I want to stay off the insulin I cant have almost any carbs. Bread and flour arent on my diet. I just wanted some carbs. Which sounds ok except I feel guilty now and it probably contributed to my binge feelings today.
Today I sat with my feelings and I cant figure out what is bothering me. I am supposed to sit through the pain of bad feelings and wait for it to pass. It is really hard to do. You feel literal pain in your body. Eating distracts you from the pain and is a learned response. The only way to get out of the habit is to say no to the urge to binge eat and wait it out, do something else, journal, think about it, recognize the problem.
Yesterday I felt so good after working out. I was so proud of myself. Today is the total opposite. This is where its important to realize that it is a weight loss journey, a way of life, not just a diet. The ups and downs will be a normal part of the journey. You just have to keep getting back up!
Thinking of all of you who are struggling and hope you can find the strength within yourselves to keep going! You can do it!
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287.0 lb
Lost so far: 65.0 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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steady weight
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