iowasara's Journal, 04 January 2008

Oh the holidays. When my stomach turns into a lumpy ball of lard, my jeans no longer fit, and any thoughts and dreams of someday losing weight go through the window.

I have my mom partially to thank for buying me like 5 lbs. of candy to send home with me. And the giant bag of homemade sugar cookies I have been eating for every meal. I dieted and behaved myself food-wise until December 24th and it has been all downhill from there.

To get myself back on track, I am cheating and bought some Alli. I am also going to get some other diet pills. I am working out on my treadmill. I have refused to go to the grocery store period. I will repent for my sins and pay dearly for having a joyful holiday.

I seriously cannot even look at myself. I look aweful. It all went to my stomach and I look pregnant. Time to get back on the diet train. What am I supposed to do with all of that candy? Throw it away? I hate wasting things!!!!

155.0 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 10.0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.