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So... first entry
What am I doing here? How did I get here?
Well... I lost weight 4 stone 2 years ago... and now I creeping back up again. I feel like I have very much let myself down, but also I feel ashamed, like others are judging me for the slow increase.
I was once 23 stone! After my son was born and for a long while after. I felt very unhappy in myself at that time. Confidence internatlly shattered and fragile.
When my husband and I separated the weight came off without trying... and I stayed at a consistant 17-18 stone... When I was asked if I had lost weight I used to joke it off saying that I had lost my dead weight (that of the ex!) rather than have to think about the fact that I was fat and had been fatter.
So once again I embarked on trying to shed a bit more, mostly because my doctor told me to and there was free sessions with slimming world. And I joined their group... lost more weight coming down to just under 14 stone.... amazing.
But I couldn't afford to go once the freebie was done... so over the last year 3 stone has crept back on.
Now I am here.
Confidence decreasing again. Feeling frumpy. Unhappy with how I am looking. How I am feeling. I want this to change. I want to maintain a good healthy weight, not one that creeps back up...
and so it begins again.
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230.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 50.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 26 March 2011:
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1512 kcal
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Fat: 77.20g | Prot: 108.33g | Carb: 97.81g.
Breakfast: Scrambled Egg (Whole, Cooked), Toasted Rye Bread. Lunch: Green Pesto, Toasted Rye Bread, Soft Cheese (Reduced Fat), Swiss Cheese (Low Fat, Pasteurized), Soft Cheese (Reduced Fat), Toasted Rye Bread. Dinner: Cheddar Cheese, Blue Cheese, Value Cooked and Peeled Prawns, Smoked Haddock (Fish), Cod Fillet, Yellow Mustard, Boiled Carrots, Skimmed Milk, Cooked Cauliflower (Fat Not Added in Cooking). Snacks/Other: Instant Coffee (made from Powdered), Chunky Peanut Butter (with Salt), Toasted Rye Bread, Coffee, Coffee. more...
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