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It took forever for this diet to start but it's in motion. Also, there are certain phases during which I will come to a halt. After these phases, it goes down quick enough. Basically I am starting to see that weight loss is a regular thing. I sure hope so, I'm consuming less than 45 carbs a day every day.
The weight I'm at now, it's been 3 and a half - 4 years since I've weighed this little. And even back then... it was still fresh when it went up again. As my weight goes down, I rediscover the sensuality of my thinner body from an adult mind, almost like discovering it for the first time. (I was 18 last time, still quite self conscious. And - was a whole cup size smaller! XD Which for a B... aaanyway.)
TOTAL weight loss:
165 - 124.6 = 40.4 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!
What the (insert cursing here)????
Weight Loss in January 2014:
3-4 lbs
Here are the changes I am seeing on my body.
The chub on my stomach, that I thought was going to require exercise to disapeer, is flattening. The mushyness creates less of a bump and rests more in the middle of my tummy. Generally, from the hips to under my chest, it's starting to look connected, rather than interrupted by the lump of my tummy. I'm still curvy - in the sense that my female bone structure in particular makes the top half of my body lean forward and the bottom part stay behind somewhat even as I stand straight - so this diagonal doesn't count as chubyness anymore, it's really just my form. My hips are taking a form out of the flatness of my pelvis - not boldly so, but smewhat, and I can see where that's heading. Starting to understand what frame lies underneath. Looking forward to meeting this frame, and enjoying the preview.
Unfortunately - - my arms don't change. Useless flab. If you see me in a T-shirt, you barely ntice my weight loss. This is very frustrating for me. I'd like to work my arms out... but I don't know how to go about that without the work out tools necessary. I'm leaving the shaping of my body for the end, really. I want to wait and see how much of it wil actually be necessary when I'm in a place I like and just require some tweeking.
I'm a fat girl (entering the fat phase at the time, not full out. You could've called me quite chuby instead.) experiencing a normal body thinning. If anyone out there can sympathise with me, you know how grateful we are to achieve what we have. I hope this might inspire someone out there, even if it's just one desperate girl like I was at 165, to show you that you can do it too. The power of habit is the strongest tool you have. Find comfort in the new pattern you create. For me, the #1 motivator has been my state when I cheat. I already have strong emotional problems, and since I've been clinging to my diet as a method of compensation for other life problems, I've been being careful not to worsen my state. Very careful. "no way... I'm depressed enough. There's no way I'm goign to cause myself to have to come to terms with anther cheat/binge. I don't have a choice at this point, I've got to keep moving. My life's still not going to be pretty but at least this will not contribute to the horror."
I don't know that it's the best mentality to have on a diet but... the end result is that my continuing weight loss has become in itself a motivator for me when I'm feeling down. It doesn't solve my problems or feelings completely but it's at least one positive part - scratch that - accomplishment in my otherwise hectic life.
I'll post pictures soon.
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124.6 lb
Lost so far: 57.6 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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losing 1.8 lb a week
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