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Boy have I been all over the place. I haven't been watching my diet, and haven't been exercising...but I HAVE been stressed out of my mind with 2 members of my family in serious condition in separate hospitals, and here I am...on the other side of the world.
I can't control everyone's health (I can't even get a handle on my own), and there isn't anything I can do whether I am here or there....but boy I want to be there. Been asked to wait, because I am only allowed to take 8 days off...and if I lose 2 generations in my family in the same month, I need to help mom handle...everything...but I have my foot itching to take me out the door to the airport.
But other than that itch...i can't seem to get myself to motivate to do any exercise. I feel so heavy and leaden. I think crying is the only physical activity I'm getting besides my work week. Even now, I am typing this instead of going to the gym. But...at least it is some small step of progress, to try to get back to personal health related accountability. I've always heard that you lose weight when you are stressed like this....I want to eat everything I lay eyes on. Especially sugar.
I am back to the starting point at 115 kg. But, it is better to start again there, than to start back at 126kg, which I was in February last year. If I could just convince myself to exercise out all this anxiety, I am sure I could make some progress, but it is hard to convince myself to keep putting one foot in front of the other and go to work, recently.
This week I will make a goal of logging in every day to record my intake. I should be able to manage it.
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253.5 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 103.6 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 28 October 2010:
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2343 kcal
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Fat: 55.76g | Prot: 73.57g | Carb: 394.08g.
Breakfast: banana, milk, cornflakes. Lunch: rice, chocolate raisins, miso, cucumber, milk tea. Dinner: inari. more...
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gaining 2.1 lb a week
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