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This has been a great week on several fronts! I'm sorry this entry is so long, but I have a few things I want to get out.
First of all, two pounds in the last week is a big loss for me! The smaller I get, the harder it is for the scale to move, but lately, my motivation levels have been sky high (partly because of you fine folks!) and it has become really easy to not even be tempted by foods which don't align with my health goals.
Saturday morning, I woke up early and ran five miles in public. Now that may not seem like such a big deal, but I was never athletic growing up. In fact, I'm pretty sure I would have come in first place in an International Run, Catch and Throw Like a Girl Competition, when I was younger. So, I have been reclaiming my athleticism as an adult, which is no simple feat, physically and emotionally. I still remember always being picked dead last to play kickball, or any sport for that matter. I remember the kids teasing me for the way I ran, because I didn't run like an athlete, or slamming me in the head with a ball because it was funny to play "Slam The Nerd", as they liked to call it. I ran more like Phoebe from Friends (Google it if you're unfamiliar. It's pretty amusing stuff!). So, up until recently, I mostly just ran on my basement treadmill, always feeling like I wasn't good enough or fast enough to run in public without feeling embarrassed or humiliated. But Saturday's weather forecast said it was supposed to be a phenomenal day and I knew it was time for me to take the plunge, so to speak, and take my running public. I went to a large, crowded, public park and I ran five miles in less than an hour! It felt pretty amazing, actually. I passed pretty much everyone on the trails and felt like I was flying like a graceful gazelle! I'm pretty sure I would make those aging 40-year old jocks from my childhood eat my dust now! It feels really good not to let those bullies control how I feel about myself anymore. I can kick some serious a$$ now!
And lastly, a test of my resolve and commitment to my health came this past holiday weekend. I visited a friend's house where there were all sorts of unhealthy foods being served. I showed up with my packed cooler of Plant-Powered Awesomeness and Spring Water. I felt great about my choices and was actually kind of disgusted at their food choices (which I, of course, kept to myself.) I just smiled and ate the food I brought with me and had a great time! I remember how hard it was to change how I ate. There were times where I seriously mourned the loss of so many foods I had once adored. In the last two years, I have cried. I have screamed. I have had a few meltdowns along the way. I have felt like I could never enjoy an outing with friends without indiscriminately eating and drinking myself into a garbage food coma. I have avoided social situations involving food because it was emotionally difficult to be in those situations. I really just wanted to be and eat like "normal people".
But, in the last 6 months, something has shifted in my thinking where I realized that "normal eating" in this country is severely detrimental to people's health and well-being. Who wants to be "normal" when normal is really F*%$'d up? I don't. Not anymore. I simply don't want to eat those foods anymore. Those foods ruined my health, my self-esteem and robbed me of so many years of joy and vibrancy. It is now so effortless to make the right choices these days and finally, after battling my "food demons" since I was a teenager, I feel like I have conquered this, once and for all. The future couldn't be brighter.
Best of luck to everyone this week! Give it your all! Push yourself and challenge those voices inside your head that tell you, "It's too hard to make the right choices." You can do it! You're worth it!
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152.3 lb
Lost so far: 53.7 lb.
Still to go: 27.3 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 07 July 2014:
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1286 kcal
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Fat: 60.42g | Prot: 58.87g | Carb: 154.87g.
Lunch: Driscoll's Strawberries, Driscoll's Strawberries, Bananas, Nutiva Organic Hemp Protein Hi-Fiber. Dinner: Bragg Liquid Aminos, Cucumber (Peeled), Avocados, Arrowhead Mills Organic Flax Seeds, Nutiva Organic Hemp Seed Raw Shelled, Carrots, Red Onions, Ginger, Cascadian Farm Organic Bagged Vegetables - Sweet Peas, Snowpeas (Pea Pod), Nasoya Tofuplus Extra Firm, Peaches. Snacks/Other: Clif Bar Kit's Organic Fruit & Nut Bar - Berry Almond, Earthbound Farm Organic Blueberries, O Organics Raw Unsalted Almonds. more...
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2561 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Standing - 3 hours, Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 1 hour, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 45 minutes, Resting - 11 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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losing 1.6 lb a week
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