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Well today i woke up and weighed myself as usual i was so disgusted to see that i had gained 2 pounds it put me in a bad mindset for the day. and i purposely went on an eating binge. my logic was i wanted to do something to make it feel worth gaining the two pounds.isn't that ridiculous? my crazy mind. i don't feel justified i just feel sick like i overdid it. my first thought this morning was of sheer panick like maybe i need to do something more extreme but then i had to talk myself out of it and just read what i actually ate all week and then it will make sense why i gained. its all accumulative. it seems that if i binge the weight gain won't show up until days later. so today was the result of a few days ago. I just need to realize that instead of thinking to myself WHY did i gain when i was soo good yesterday. I really need to see things clearly. i keep making these excuses in my head that i am different then everyone else and i won't lose weight like everyone else does even if i stick to the plan. the CRAZY mind.
Diet Calendar Entries for 11 December 2008:
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2815 kcal
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Fat: 65.62g | Prot: 66.96g | Carb: 498.18g.
Breakfast: coffee creamer hazelnut, banana, Egg (Whole), coffee, bread. Lunch: smartfood popcorn, california roll. Dinner: ragu, whole wheat pasta. Snacks/Other: hostess cupcakes, hersheys kisses, blueberry waffle, ice cream. more...
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2036 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 45 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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