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Well how life changes and throws curve balls. Not coping at all well, my mum was sectioned under mental health act which was traumatic enough and she blamed me all the time for everything, accused me all the time of things i would never do. she was ill and had been for ages with dementia. but then to end it all she died on the 1st april which has left me a big hole and with so much regret and guilt about everything, no one to tell and no one to listen. consequently the diet is out the window big time. cant even think when i might get back on any track at the moment let alone diet. feel so much alone, was an only child dad died at 3, i do have my own children but they are not on this earth to bear my troubles, dont like to burden them with any of my feelings so just needed to write something somewhere and then its out for now. need to stop feeling sorry for myself and get back into the real world. functioning to everyone who sees me but i know i am not really coping very well.
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302.0 lb
Lost so far: 34.6 lb.
Still to go: 114.6 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 0.7 lb a week
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