redwinelover's Journal, 30 June 2011

Sorry... been such a tough week or more. We lost our dear Bo boy kitty. He passed away sometime soon after midnight on June 20th. We had a wonderful Father's Day celebration, even discussed the need to probably have Bo put down that week. My son left to take his girlfriend home soon after midnight on "Sunday", and he was probably dying at the time. He was wheezing and my son didn't realize. Our daughter came home shortly after midnight and found him at the front door, as if waiting to be found. Oh man. Even though we expected it, it was so hard to deal with. Almost 16 whole years - most of our lives as a family, our entire lives here in AZ, too.

So very sad, so hard to deal with. My husband, my dear, sweet, ever-loving husband, asked if we'd like Bo cremated instead of burying him in our back yard. Yes, we all agreed it would be best. So that was hard to deal with - having someone come to pick him up, filling out what we'd like to have engraved on his urn, stuff like that. My daughter and I chose a beautiful urn with paw prints on it and had it engraved. Tough, tough time. Probably more so for our kids - the first pet they've ever lost! Amazing since my kids are almost 21 and 23. But it's finished now and he's back at home and we are trying to adjust.

So many things to be thankful for, though. He died at home - as horrible as that may sound, it was SO difficult to come to the decision that we really did need to have him put down. Poor Bo was in pain - no denying that anymore. But we got almost three full months "extra" to say our goodbyes and love him to his end with the surgery he'd had. I just hope and pray he wasn't in too much pain and that he understood how difficult it was for us to let him go. He really was a GREAT kitty. I miss him so much.

Now... whew. Enough. Okay, so I had my Fraxel (second re:pair... hopefully the last) on Tues. So I'm all swollen and red and definitely housebound for the next week or so at least. The jury's out... but I will say that better drugs made for a much easier procedure. It hurt... yes, it did, but nothing like it hurt last time. There were only a few areas where I said - OK...that REALLY hurts... more shots please!

What hurts now is all the places the shots were given! Ouch. My forehead and around my eyes and my chin... ouch, lots of pain now. But only if I touch it. I'm down to vinegar soaks and swabs every three to four hours now through tomorrow. Then on Sat. and Sun. it should be just two soaks/cleaning per day and I can switch from the Aquaphor to Trixcera cream once I get to the twice a day. Sure hope I get as much improvement in my skin with this second procedure as I did with the first procedure. That'd be awesome, then I think I truly would look to be in my early 40's rather than the 52 I'll be at the end of Aug. Damn, the price of vanity, huh? LOL...

Okay, other GOOD news?? Klannoye is now a GRANDMA! Her daughter had a beautiful baby boy on the 29th. A healthy, 7 lb, 7oz. little boy named Carter. I hope she's okay with MY big mouth blabbing her good news! I'm just so happy all went well - mama and baby are fine, grandma is over-the-moon in love with this new baby! Of course.

But I sure needed some GOOD news to share.

Weight is up...not loving it, but whatever. I did work out a couple days before my procedure and I'd been working on the bedroom before that. Now I'm lazing around for several days. It is what it is!


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So so sorry about your kitty. You are right though you got 3 more months than you thought you would get, it is tough to say goodbye to a family pet. Oh and Congrats to Klannoye and family on the new addition that is very exciting! 
01 Jul 11 by member: pixidaisy
Awwwww I am so sorry for your loss. but you had 16 wonderful years with Little Bo. Yes its one of the hardest things to go through I am not going to tell you a lie..I have lost 3 precious dogs and each one was so special in their own right.......Hope your feeling better soon and can enjoy your new face...Take care of you....have a great 4th...Bren 
01 Jul 11 by member: BHA
So sorry about Bo. Don't be surprised if takes weeks before you stop thinking your saw him out of the corner of your eye, peeking around the door, and years to get over your loss. It's been over 4 years since our beloved Nuisance (best cat EVER) departed and I am only now starting to think of getting another, if only to even up the gender discrepancy (2 bipedal males, and both quadrupeds - Ramble and mouse - are also boys). And yes, thank heavens Bo passed at home: we had the weekend to say farewell to Nuisance and were going to take her in on Tuesday, however she went at 6:45am on the Monday with hubby & I by her side. We also cremated her as I couldn't face burying her "down the back" where she rarely went, and away from the family she brought so much happiness to; she's in a gorgeous wooden box with her picture on top. ________ Pass on my congratulations to Klannoye; it is a truly special moment welcoming that first grandchild into the family.  
01 Jul 11 by member: Ruby_Jewell
Hi Pixi.... thank you. Those three months were so worth it for us, just hope they were for him, as well. I'll pass on the congrats to Klannoye and her family for you, too. Hope she's okay with me spreading the awesome news. Saw pictures of the little guy and he's awesome! 
01 Jul 11 by member: redwinelover
Thank you, Bren. And it is one of the most difficult things - just so hard to believe how much a part of the family these little guys become. I'm sure it'll get easier. Thanks again, you're really sweet.  
01 Jul 11 by member: redwinelover
Hi Ruby. Thank you. And you've got that one right - I keep looking over to the sofa half expecting to see him lying there. And we put this stuffed bear on the landing where he spent most of the last year of his life. It was his "company". Truthfully, they had the same coloring and markings, and Bo was a big boy right up until the last couple of weeks, so the bear wasn't much bigger looking than him. We've left the bear on the landing by mutual consent. Unfortunately, it's easy to mistake the bear for Bo, especially in the dark. We also have his sister, Ali, and though the same litter, she definitely looks more Siamese than he ever did. He more resembled the Rag Doll cat - big, longer hair, huge round blue eyes, rounder face. But every once in a while, Ali will look like Bo. Even her eyes look more round now, it's really weird. And isn't it strange that both of our kitties waited until we were able to come to the decision to have them put down and then passed? ==================== And thank you, I will pass on your congratulations to Klannoye, as well. I'll try to get her to post a couple of pictures on her journal. Take care, Ruby. Thanks for your story, too. Makes me feel a little better.  
01 Jul 11 by member: redwinelover
My dear, sweet friend, D...I am soooo sorry about the loss of your special kitty, Bo. I understand how you feel...I have lost so many of my 4 legged children, and it always hurts so much. I am glad that the fraxel procedure went well, and I hope the results are exactly what you are hoping for. Hugs and lots of love, my dear friend! Hope you have an awesome 4th of July weekend! Love ya!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 
01 Jul 11 by member: ctlss
Oh and congrats to K...I got so caught up thinking about your loss, I almost forgot to send the gratz! 
01 Jul 11 by member: ctlss
Hi RWL, hope your feeling better today this 2nd day of July..Have a wonderful 4th dear.....Bren  
02 Jul 11 by member: BHA
Tribute To A Best Friend Sunlight streams through window pane onto a spot on the floor...then I remember, it's where you used to lie, but now you are no more. Our feet walk down a hall of carpet and muted echoes sound....then I remember, It's where your paws would joyously abound A voice is heard along the road, and up beyond the hill then I remember it can't be yours....your golden voice is still. But I'll take that vacant spot of floor and empty muted hall and lay them with the absent voice and unused dish along the wall I'll wrap these treasured memorials in a blanket of my love and keep them for my best friend until we meet above. Went through the same thing last september it was hell you are in my prayers 
03 Jul 11 by member: MrsMtkr
Hi ctlss... thank you. It still hurts so much. I just cut a piece of the sheepskin he laid on for years to put under the urn and set it on our bookcase shelf. Thanks for the well wishes on the Fraxel. Right now I'm wondering what the hell I was thinking! Summer - cowering in the house, looking hideous. I'm sure a few more days will make all the difference. (it better!) Love ya, too, my friend. Oh, I passed on congrats to Klannoye for everyone. She is absolutely over the moon with this little guy!  
03 Jul 11 by member: redwinelover
Hi Bren. The last two days have been rough, I'm not gonna lie. Seems I grieved for a few days and put it away. Pulled it out again yesterday, apparently. I'm sure time will help. Thanks, Bren, and I hope you're having a great time this weekend.  
03 Jul 11 by member: redwinelover
hottagain... my long-lost friend! I've thought about you so much recently and hope you're doing well. Thank you for the poem, although you really got the tears going now! But yeah, very appropriate words. Thank you! 
03 Jul 11 by member: redwinelover
hottagain - I just printed that out on some nice paper, rolled it up, tied it with a black ribbon and put it in Bo's urn with him. Thank you again. 
03 Jul 11 by member: redwinelover

     
 

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