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Hello Fat Secret and a whole new year! Somehow over the last several months - probably 6 or so, I've gotten out of the habit of exercising. I've also noticed I have less energy and more mood swings - hmmmm... coincidence?? lol
This year, once again, I'm opting for HEALTH. I haven't weighed in - that will wait a week or so. May seem silly to some, but the number would only serve to bring me down at this moment and possibly take away this fleeting sense of motivation I'm experiencing. I also know it can't be too bad... probably in the low 130's. All but two pair of jeans fit and the way I wear them, I don't leave a lot of room for weight gain... on purpose. Like - I can't let myself sit around in sweat pants or yoga pants because my theory is I will "grow into" whatever I'm wearing! Like the commercial says - "It's only weird if it doesn't work"!
As much as I want to firm up, drop those estimated 8- 10 lbs, I really want to focus on the health aspect. I know the weight loss will come naturally when I choose to eat healthy foods and exercise regularly.
The past year has been difficult. Really, really difficult. My daughter has many, many issues - legal, emotional, mental and physical that are making all of our lives hell. It's very difficult to help someone who doesn't want your help. Or only wants it on rare occasions. I won't even begin to touch on all the things that have occurred over the last year where my daughter is concerned. Suffice it to say, it has been (and will continue to be) an enormous challenge, with a difficult road ahead.
My son officially moved to Alabama to begin his career in the space field. For the most part (including his internship), he moved last June. This has been very difficult to deal with, as well. I'm so very, very happy for him, but that's a long way from home and I miss him dearly. Many of his friends still come to visit me and I am thankful for that. They're some great people.
My husband is overworked and it doesn't seem to ever get better. I worry about his health working so hard.
I had a CO2 laser procedure done in July that has left me with a lot of discoloration and what appears to be stretch marks and/or scarring! On my upper arms, chest and breast on the area treated (which comes damn close to the nipple area!) A dermatologist confirmed it may be hypopigmentation and the best case scenario is to lighten all the skin around these areas as much as possible to achieve a bit of blending. I know it's vanity, but this issue has really thrown me into a funk. The only positive is my doctor will give me treatments to try to correct this at his own expense. For the record - I do NOT recommend CO2 off the face. Maybe this is a rare issue, but so not worth the risk. Hindsight.... sigh....
I have two friends here that are somewhat close to my age (well, older, but the rest of the people I speak to regularly are in their 20's!), sisters. I love them both - they are my sanity. Found out two days ago that one is taking a consulting job across the country for a min. of three months. She'll come home once a month, but sure she'll have things to take care of and spend time with her hubby. Her sister, who I've come to love, is going back to Arkansas to close up her house and sell it and isn't expecting to return until the end of June. :( So I think I need to take a couple of classes or something. Getting back to journaling will help, getting back to a regular exercise routine will also help, but I need to do something outside of home and find a way to meet people. I'm considering a nutrition class and a yoga class - both would strengthen my commitment to health, anyway. :D
So as I said, it's been a year of changes. I need to change with them. Here's to 2013... let's hope and pray it is a better year than '12.
...later... I did it! I did a workout. Okay...not exactly the entire thing, but I worked out for almost a half hour. Not bad considering. :D Here we go!
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