My story......

During my teenage years I thought I was fat! My brother joked about my weight and I think he put it in my head, so I accepted it. In looking back at those times now, I realize that I wasn't overweight and I wonder if because it was put in my head that I made it my reality.

By the time I married in 1994 I was a 200 lb. bride. He loved me for me, so my weight was not an issue. In 1996 after having my first child, I went on weight watchers. Not only did I lose 60 lbs, but I became an instructor with them!!!! I felt like a completely different person. I looked better going back at my 10 year class reunion then I did when I graduated. It was the best feeling ever.

After having baby #2 and baby #3, the weight crept back on (and I had sworn that would never happen). In 1997 I was 165 lbs and now I was once again over the 200lb mark! I was devastated, but instead of finding the fire within to battle the buldge, I just accepted it.

In April of 2009 my father went into the hospital for a double bypass! He had several complications and was in ICU for a week. It really scared me. I was approaching my 40th birthday and I needed to to something, but for some reason that "fire" wasn't there. I don't know how to explain it but until your mind is ready to fight the fight, your diet efforts will not be successful!

I went on a trip with friends for my 40th in July and after seeing the pictures and getting hurt on the "zipline" (because I couldn't stop my fat ass at the end of the zip) I realized I must get serious.

I don't want to be a big girl anymore!!!!!!