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I have lost a kilo, but honestly it’s not because I’ve been trying. I’m so depressed I’m not getting out of bed, I’ve been missing 2 meals a day. When I did get out of bed I ate half a litre of ice cream and cheese on toast.. The grief is brutal. It’s been over 4 months, but it feels the darkest and the hardest now. I know I need to exercise, But at this time I can’t seem to motivate myself beyond sadness. It is like that scene in Never Ending Story when the horse gives up and sinks into the Bog of Sadness… my soul loses faith and starts to sink…the only way out of the Bog of Sadness is to have faith… but where do you find faith when you can’t find your faith?
I will pray and rest and cry and feel this (grief, loss, pain) until I can find my faith and the Will to rise up
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158.7 lb
Lost so far: 6.6 lb.
Still to go: 15.4 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 14 June 2024:
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1568 kcal
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Fat: 57.70g | Prot: 78.35g | Carb: 175.53g.
Breakfast: Nutra Organics Collagen Beauty , Cappuccino, Hemp Foods Australia Hemp Gold Protein. Lunch: Red Cabbage , Olive Oil , Macro Lentils, Sardines in Water. Snacks/Other: Lindt 85% Cocoa Dark Chocolate, Candied Ginger. more...
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losing 2.2 lb a week
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