Yearofhealth2023's Journal, 20 August 2023

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Memorializing for myself. 1st pic 3 weeks post op of brachiaplasty and tummy tuck-136 pounds . 2nd pic about 2 months ago 142 pounds. 3rd pick sept-oct 2022 about 200 pounds. 4th pic 15 years ago 145 pounds. Last pick summer 2020 220+ pounds (didnt weigh those years). Last pick i was in my early 20’s 128-130 pounds. It’s been a journey. I am still struggling with the voices in my head that fixate on unhealthy food. True, even after all the work I’ve put in…all the decades i took good care of myself with hiccups here and there. You would think this surgery would rejuvenate me but i feel like I’ve completed the task i set for myself and now im concerned i may slip back into old behavior as I’ve been unable to workout, not in my normal routine for over a month now and not walking but hundreds of feet not miles and miles. This is a pictorial reminder to myself how easily i went from thin and fit to fat and not and how unwell i felt. I had low energy, prediabetic, high high high cholesterol. High blood pressure. Frequent migraines and weekly headaches. Need to wake up!!!!! Stay healthy!!!!!!! Remember how strong i felt when i first got to California. I know im just worn down from weeks of low sleep and pain but dont want to forget these feelings. The girl in the black tank looks so much healthier, happier and prettier than the girl in the boat (although my white boy loves me no matter what i look like💕). Ive got this. I have to.

Diet Calendar Entry for 20 August 2023:

1032 kcal

Fat: 35.64g | Prot: 74.55g | Carb: 117.42g. Breakfast: Orgain protein powder, Baking powder, Swans Down Cake Flour, Chocolate Chips, Maple Grove Farms Pure Maple Syrup, Bananas, Vanilla Extract, Salt, Egg. Lunch: HEB Cantaloupe Chunks, Oscar Mayer 98% Fat Free Chicken Breast Lunch Meat, Pure Heart Seedless Watermelon, Kodiak Power Flapjacks. Dinner: Tillamook Shredded Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Egg White. Snacks/Other: Orgain protein powder, Baking powder, Swans Down Cake Flour, Chocolate Chips, Maple Grove Farms Pure Maple Syrup, Bananas, Vanilla Extract, Salt, Egg, Quest Peanut Butter Cups. more...

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You’ve come a long way!

20 Aug 23 by member: mikeb1982

You look amazing. I am praying you now,can you general health alot better 👱‍♀️🐈‍⬛..Pam and Shadow the cat

20 Aug 23 by member: Maine coon

You look awesome!

20 Aug 23 by member: Shadyj26

You looked gorgeous even when you were overweight. In fact, I think you look healthier now than the previous picture because your ribs and sternum were showing you were underweight then. You may have gained some weight back because your body needed to stabilize at a healthy weight. I understand the fear of gaining weight after you've lost it because I'm already facing that before meeting my goal, but you have learned enough about your body to do what is healthy today so you don't gain weight tomorrow.

20 Aug 23 by member: s linerud

wonderful you keep going

20 Aug 23 by member: kearneyjoseph32

Kearney and Gabriel thank you!!! I was young and VERY thin. That was the 80’s when anorexia was all the look which is so disturbing to myself these days. The damage that was caused to so many including myself by that unhealthy unrealistic body look. And it appears that the pendulum is swinging back that way again as of this year which is unfortunate.