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05/01/2012 - My name is Marilyn; I am 23 years old and 338 pounds. I don't know how I got this way nor did I ever care to recognize myself in the mirror. It has always been the way of life and I was more stuck in the "it is what it is" mind set. I have always been somewhat healthy which never helped my situation what so ever. I have not had any serious health problems, yet... I thought if I was "healthy" then why bother changing. I feel I started putting on the weight in 3rd grade. Most of the people on my Dads side are built like lumberjacks so I always used the excuse I was "big boned". I am big boned but I can no longer feed myself that bull. I don't have the typical horror story of how my childhood was ruined by bullies or how I was picked on every day because I wasn't. I had a lot of friends and maybe had 1 or 2 snide comments about my weight throughout my entire life (that I know of). Sometimes I wish I was picked on about it more because maybe my weight wouldn't have escaladed to where it is at right now. At this point in time I own a home, I have 4 dogs which are my world and I have a boyfriend of almost 5 years. He is great but I know deep down he wishes I was fit. I mean I can only imagine how awkward it is to show off your 338 pound trophy girlfriend and be proud of it but he has never shown any embarrassment and he calls me beautiful and tells me he loves me EVERY day. Most of my motivation is the thought of the look on his face when he can't take his eyes off me. I owe it to him and myself to do this.