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19 March 2019
(Long entry incoming.)
Lately I've been reading books by people who have lost a significant amount of weight and decided to write about their experiences with maintenance and having a new body, etc.
It's interesting to read their thoughts on their new bodies, because I do have to say that's one disconnect I can't say I have. I was disconnected with my body when I was morbidly obese. I'd see myself in the mirror or in photos and not quite believe it was actually me. I didn't look like that, after all. In my mind I still had a tall, willowy, slender form. I was always mildly surprised when I had a hard time fitting into seats at the theater, or wasn't able to fasten a seat belt comfortably. I bought clothes in increasingly larger sizes but when they started getting too tight, it only registered as a small inconvenience that I had to buy some more larger clothes.
I never really saw the obese me as being me, and maybe that was part of the reason it took me so long to do something about it. Like Dr. Phil says, "You can't change what you don't acknowledge." I wasn't acknowledging... in my psyche... that I was obese. I knew the number on the scale indicated it was so; my doctors said so as well, and I believed them.
I knew it, but I didn't acknowledge it.
But I digress...
I'm reading these books to try and understand this thing called maintenance. Because now that I am myself again, I am terrified of gaining any weight back and I will do anything and everything to stop that from happening. But isn't everyone who has lost a lot of weight terrified about that? Don't all of them vow to keep it off forever? How many have truly been successful at it? And what are they doing that I need to know about?
That is what I was hoping to discover from reading these books.
The stories, as I said, have been interesting. But most of them seem to concentrate, as I said, on their new bodies and how they felt in their new bodies and how people reacted to their new bodies and how that felt. There's a lot about dating, and buying clothes, and all of that kind of stuff. There is very little devoted to the bare bones of actual maintenance.
And... it also seems they may be regaining the weight. At least some of them. If they were so happy to have lost the weight... if they were so determined to never regain... if they were so convinced of their continued success that they immortalized their journey in A GODDAMN SELF-HELP AND ADVICE BOOK THEN HOW DID THEY REGAIN?
How did they allow that to happen? How? And if they were so vulnerable to it, what about me? Is weight regain something that just happens? No matter what we do? Is our fate already written and are we powerless to stop it?
I refuse to believe that.
But yet... there it is.
Should I really be taking weight maintenance advice from someone who couldn't maintain their weight?
Has anyone been able to maintain?
Even my favorite participant of My 600 Pound Life... the very first one... Melissa Morris. She's not maintained her entire weight loss. She's smaller than she was at her largest, to be sure, but she's a good 100 pounds more than she was at her smallest. And she had surgery! Multiple surgeries! Painful, debilitating surgeries for gastric bypass and excess skin removal.
After going through all of that... why is it that she allowed the weight to creep back on? When she knows how it feels, what it does, and what it takes to lose it? After all she sacrificed and all the pain she went through?
It's stuff like that that scares me to death. Everyone who has lost a lot of weight swears they will never... never... gain any back. But yet, they do. Almost all of them do. It's like it's inevitable, and that terrifies me.
I can't let it happen. No matter what.
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18 March 2019
Random thoughts...
When reading weight loss blogs, you usually see updates like, "X number of pounds, gone FOREVER!"
I would like to point out that I have not had this thought. Not this time.
This time, it's more like "X number of pounds, hiding in a dark alley waiting for me to look away so they can pile on me again if I so much as relax one second of my absolute, no-exceptions, constant vigilance."
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16 March 2019
Weigh-in:
151.6 lb
lost so far:
168.4 lb
still to go:
6.6 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
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losing 3.5 lb a week
14 March 2019
I don't know if I'm getting FatSecret to work the way I want it to, but meh... it doesn't matter I guess.
I changed "my diet" from being the Paleo diet to being "my own diet" because I felt as though everything I posted was being sucked into some kind of Paleo diet void where only people on the Paleo diet could see it, haha. Besides, these days I'm more Primal than Paleo because I've added back some dairy products like butter, whey protein, and hard cheeses.
Still no grains or processed sugars though. Those things are gone forever.
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14 March 2019
Logging food is hard, y'all.
Well, not the actual logging food part... but the figuring up of all the calories. Like it's easy for me to log that I had chicken breast and salad and it all fit in a cereal bowl, but that's not very exact.
Back when I did the old Weight Watchers (when it was still Smart Points) I didn't bother tracking zero point foods. Back then, the zero point foods were just things like salad greens, raw spinach, green beans, etc. So if I had a bowlful of raw spinach with some dressing on it, I would only measure and count the dressing. The calories (or points) in the spinach wouldn't even come into my mind.
It's tedious to me, to have to log everything. "2 cups mixed greens. 7 grape tomatoes, 1/2 a medium cucumber..." and then figure out how many grams or ounces or cups or spoons those things are.
Bah.
How exact are you with your food logging? Do you count things like plain salad greens and raw vegetables?
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