goldenstar584318's Journal, 28 January 2008

I think I'm going to stay like this. I look ok and I feel good about my weight. I may not look like a model but then again who needs to? I mean women and a lot of teens are pushed to eating disorders to look like sticks. I mean if you want to be able to disappear when you turn sideways be my guest. But seriously! People who do that are a lot of the time really pretty and have nothing wrong with them! I mean I almost had a weight issue and I'm a healthy weight and less than most people my age and height. I was told I was fat by friends and family. I had one friend who told me I was beautiful and some people on here tell me I was ok. I'll admit that for the couple weeks I wasn't on I was battling with myself on a disorder. I'm glad my friend was there because he helped me get over it so I didn't do any harm to my body. He forced me to eat so I wouldn't hurt myself and that's just what I needed. He made me see what I really look like, and you know what? I'm happy. I mean my other friends knew and did nothing (I'm beginning to wonder why I go to my school) but my friend Evan did everything and he doesn't even go to my school. I met him at a camp and he's on of my exs. But I mean I wish that everyone who was going through what I was going through could have an Evan like I did. He saved me from myself and I love him to death. He's a real friend. Aside from Evan some people on here also helped. (they know who they are and I'd tell who if I had more time) I'd really like to thank them. Reading you're messages helped me a lot. I mean hearing from people who barely know me what they think means a lot because you know they aren't bias on the subject of what you look like. I know this is long but I mean it's needed. People on here who are losing for the wrong reason need support from people. They need to wake up and see that they are beautiful no mater what others say. They need support. Thank you for reading this. And know I will still be on here just not losing that much more. And if I do it will be a healthy way.

113.0 lb Lost so far: 5.0 lb.    Still to go: 1.0 lb.    Diet followed N/A.