WHY RIGHT NOW??
I'm so mad at myself. I pretty much did this exact same thing last year but probably a month before NOW. Why have I decided, at the holidays, that I want to lose weight more than ever? Well, none of you can answer that question but SOMETHING kicked me today more than any other day. Actually, I know exactly what it is. My brother, yes, I know this is weird, but he started dating this girl. Considering he lives 8 hours away, if things work out with them, I probably wont be meeting her until next summer so, as always, I asked him if she was extremely thin. He seems to have this thing for girls that are like stick figures. He then goes on to describe her as "not as thin as (ex's name) but she's about the size you were when you were working at The Ranch(a bar), so she's not too bad in size." Now, I have to say, my brother and I dont get down like that (disgusting) but we do have a close enough relationship that we can be honest about each others' looks. He made me feel really really good. I'm still 54 lbs away from THAT WEIGHT and I will probably never, no matter what I do, look exactly the same way I did before because I have had 2 kids but that made me want it even more. If my brother thought I was an alright size, I guess a lot of other people did too. That in itself makes me want to bust my butt to make it. I guess my veggies will be coming out of the bottom of the freezer here in a second and I will be eating those for lunch and dinner for the next couple weeks. NOT TO MENTION, ADDING TO MY PROBLEMS---I bought some cookie dough from my sons' school fund raiser and I have to go pick it up today. :(
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209.0 lb
Lost so far: 1.0 lb.
Still to go: 59.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 2.3 lb a week
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