Today is the final day of my first goal during this year, but I did not reach it. It was small and reasonable: losing 14 lbs since last spring but I only made it down 9 lbs. With my age (82) and sedentary life, it takes monumental effort to lose. In 22 weeks I have only had 1 glass of wine and 15 desserts. Now I will go on to my second goal for this year: October 28th, my Birthday but the pounds and number on the scale will need to be revised. When our beautiful daughter died of cancer I was at 117. If I can just stay on track I can get back there eventually even if it is only losing one pound a month, but that would take till Spring. On January 1, I will make a new goal. My goals are in increments: 120, then 117, then on from there. Five years ago I weighed 104, but with every pound down I get more wrinkly, so I don't know how low I want to go. A small frame at 5' tall might want to be about 100 to 108. When I used to be 5' 3 ¾” years ago I was 112. After losing almost 4” in height I would still love to be 112. There is a large wardrobe of clothes in the attic in size 4, but I may never be able to wear them. My figure has changed so much in the last 10 years. With the pain in my back, by evening each day, I become a bent-over dumpy old lady. Then by morning, I can stand up almost straight again. I'm so grateful for the many good things in my life. Today is the anniversary of when we buried our 21 year-old son that was killed by a drunk driver. Thank you, Lord, that I have lived this long, so I could get closer to You, and ask for forgiveness for the myriad of stupid, insensitive, and rebellious things I have done. You Lord are helping me live the life I am choosing. When it is Your time for me to change my life's direction, I know you will help me with that transition. Amen
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125.2 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 12.2 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 0.2 lb a week
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