heyyyyy so i weighed myself and i didn't gain! i mean, i totally didnt lose either, but i thought i'd weigh more so i'll totally take it.
i got back into journaling last night, like with a pen and paper type thing. i wrote down some stuff about my life goals and what i feel is holding me back. it really helped to kind of evaluate where my head is. i feel as though i get scared the closer i get to finishing a goal and i start to sabotage myself. i fall into this line of thinking that's like, "can you REALLY do this? and if you can, is this REALLY what you want?" i need to remember i've accomplished so many things already, things i wanted so badly i could taste them.
i think sometimes we psych ourselves out of things. i'm going to try to get around that by affirming that yes, i CAN really do these things i've set out to do. i decided on a split-second whim to go to cosmetology school and while getting through that was the hardest thing i've ever done, it was exactly what i wanted and the payoff for those 1500 hours was so rewarding. i can do that for my exam, i can do that for my health, and i can do that for so many other things i want to do but am currently telling myself i can't.
anyways, that's it for today. i'm gonna do some yoga and have something healthy for breakfast :)
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