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ok, so I havent been attending at all....not caring with the weight, what to eat, what to drink, just feeling blah...and I know that only I can right this wrong so I am going to start on the journey AGAIN!!! - one day is one day that I will get it right and then I will see how easy it was in the first place....some of you might say its not easy at all and I totally agree, but if you in my shoes at this moment in time you will see exactly what I mean.
I do this to myself most of the time - well alright - ALL OF THE TIME - and now its time to do the right thing.
I am not getting any younger, and here is a programme that is so available to us all to help us along the way and I just dont get it...tsk tsk...and I am not saying this lightly....I know that its getting to be beyond a joke now.
This weekend I really got a scare - pain in the left side under the boob going into the middle of the chest, afraid to move, to eat, to sleep, to drink, man, this is for the birds....I know that I am enormous and I really dont need anyone to point this out to me - but will someone please let my brain know....somehow brain and I dont seem to be on the same wavelength...this is very scary stuff and I am getting worse every day...the legs are getting weaker, the body heavier and the heart sorer (if there is such a word)....please brain kick into gear and give me some help here.
Almost feels like a little devil sitting on my shoulders and in my head saying *Yes its ok - go on one little bit - thats it, now another and another.....* and before you know it you have finished what you were trying to avoid. Devil thoughts be gone from this body and brain.
Heart start working again so that we can conquer this demon together. lets get it on. yeah man....
so my friends, I am going to start my journey once again and thank you all for your encouraging words, be it directly to me or just in this programme.....every little bit helps along the way.
Blessings in Abundance
Lulu.
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DESTINY IS NO MATTER OF CHANCE, IT IS A MATTER OF CHOICE - (my choice is to loose this weight and be strong so that my destiny is that I live longer and love life to the fullest.) IT NEEDS TO BE ACHIEVED.....(I am counting on myself to achieve this...with of course the blessings of the Lord) AMEN.
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370.4 lb
Lost so far: 4.4 lb.
Still to go: 17.6 lb.
Diet followed N/A.
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steady weight
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