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Me vs. Cookie
It's calling to me. As a sugar addict, it's like having crack in the house. The kids deserve treats even though I'm dieting, and for now, my weigh-in tomorrow is keeping me straight.
Having quality support is so amazing. My ex-husband wanted me fat. It's honestly the only possible reason I can come up with for why he'd come home with bags of Dove chocolate while I was trying so hard (and succeeding) at losing weight. And he'd always act like he was doing it because he was thinking of me and how he wanted to show he loved me, even though he knew I wanted something else more. And then he'd get upset that I didn't want to eat them, because here he had done something to try to make me happy, and I was being ungrateful and criticizing him for doing something thoughtful.
Honestly, it's the story of our marriage, how he never supported me in the ways I needed, and then would get upset with me that I didn't appreciate him doing things that sabotaged me and us. And he'd make me believe it was somehow all my fault.
But now there's J., who when I told him tonight that I didn't trust myself alone in the house tomorrow with the cookies, hugged me, and with no judgement, offered to put them in his car when he leaves for work tomorrow and bring them home for the kids at the end of his day. No reasoning that having one cookie wouldn't hurt, or that I deserved to have one, or that I was being silly. Just acceptance and assistance.
So the cookies are going for a car ride every day until he and the kids finish them, and I'm going to bed tonight feeling supported and uplifted. It's a good feeling. :)
Diet Calendar Entry for 18 April 2018:
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1364 kcal
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Fat: 58.50g | Prot: 129.09g | Carb: 85.57g.
Breakfast: Herbalife Nutritional Shake Mix - Dutch Chocolate, Herbalife Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla. Lunch: Ghirardelli Dark Chocolate Chips, Teriyaki Sauce, Chicken Breast, Parmesan Cheese (Shredded), Fresh Express Spring Mix, T. Marzetti Caesar Baked Croutons, Ken's Steak House Country French with Vermont Honey Dressing. Dinner: Ghirardelli Dark Chocolate Chips, Kroger Homestyle Caesar Croutons, Ken's Steak House Country French with Orange Blossom Honey Dressing, Parmesan Cheese (Shredded), O Organics Mixed Baby Greens. Snacks/Other: Herbalife Nutritional Shake Mix - Dutch Chocolate, Herbalife Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla. more...
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18 Apr 18 by member: siamese_barbie
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Wonderful share. I'm so glad that you have found a good man to share your life. In my experience they are a rare breed.
18 Apr 18 by member: teskandar
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18 Apr 18 by member: JackieSpahr
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I made a pot of coffee and have a gallon of milk in the fridge and Little Debbie sitting on the table is looking hotter and hotter. Ugh, I can relate. I made a pan of brownies for my wife and daughter, they're in bed and I'm up doing laundry while the electricity is free and it's hard not to think about the sugar. But I won't, such a slippery slope with sugar.
18 Apr 18 by member: @philrmcknight
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Been there with an ex husband and a father. Topper is they would make snide remarks about my weight to me and in public. So happy you found the right man for you. That is wonderful!!!
18 Apr 18 by member: kattay
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Love this post!
.. and the cookies that go on a daily car journey 😉
So glad you have the support at home
Good luck working towards a healthier you!
You can do this !!😁
18 Apr 18 by member: gaelicgal
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Wonderful! 🙋🏻That’s the kind of support we all can use!
19 Apr 18 by member: smprowett
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Awesome! Support makes all the difference when you are doing anything and losing weight is hard enough without someone discouraging you and trying to manipulate. Perhaps the best weight you shed was that ex!
19 Apr 18 by member: Gingerk65
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Sweet stuff is definitely my weakness, I completely understand the struggle! It's so great that you have such wonderful support at home it definitely makes the journey less rocky.
I use this recipe when I have a sweets craving (I make sure to only make it when I know I have other people to give away the rest of the cupcakes to) https://www.staysnatched.com/guilt-free-red-velvet-cupcakes/. Maybe this will help with feeding the sweet tooth without too much guilt, also strawberries and whipped cream are the best sweet snack!
19 Apr 18 by member: xAmaranta
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Great illustration of true love.One thing we've ebfrained into our thinking is that children deserve treats, as though it's paramount to depravation if they don't get it. Old story coming up hang one, I'm 57 and in our home we "rarely had treats, three balanced meals and a birthday cake, and something special around the holidays, and we were forbidden to eat anywhere except at the table. These cultural habits (some simply due to finances) keep us healthy. Parents have the responsibility to keep them healthy, not feed their sweet tooth. I wished we as a society would reconsider treating our children because they carry that habit into adulthood and pass it on to their children, ergo the epidemic of obesity in America. Please see no criticism in this against you, just an observation about how we got here.
19 Apr 18 by member: adamevegod1
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You have a good man. My hubby has a foot locker with my treats. I'll take something to him and say get this away from me. There are life savers and butterscotch candies in there. If I want a little, I'll just ask. I rarely ask. The point is, I can get him to get it away from me. No need to destroy food that was paid for.
19 Apr 18 by member: Jipper500
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And btw, my husband is thrilled with my wt loss and has never interfered one way or another. He never criticized me, didn't want to hurt my feelings. His patience paid off.
19 Apr 18 by member: Jipper500
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I have a friend who does that to women. He was always complaining about her, but then I noticed one day he was constantly slipping in comments and actions that was leading her to be exactly what he complained about. He now has another woman and he is doing the exact same thing with her. Its a control mechanism.
19 Apr 18 by member: ggreen67
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What a beautiful journal entry. ❤
19 Apr 18 by member: Becc@
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Do what make you happy, not what makes others happy.
19 Apr 18 by member: DaianaAzpil
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So sweet! Who needs cookies with a guy like that?
19 Apr 18 by member: abbadabba
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19 Apr 18 by member: TomLong
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"My ex-husband wanted me fat." Poignant. We must choose our mates, and our friends, wisely.
19 Apr 18 by member: HardDaysKnight
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