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It was really hard yesterday to drive by McDonalds without stopping by and getting a smoothie, but I managed it. But then of course I ate a packet of poptarts when I got home, making me go over my 1800 calories per day. Sometimes I wonder why it's so hard to resist eating on particular days. I think last night I was craving food because I was happy. I'm extra careful with myself when I'm sad, knowing that's a trigger for bingeing, but not when happy. Since happy is a good emotion and all. Seeing Steve and hanging out with the guys and being *invited* to hang out with the guys just made me want to overeat, which I don't quite understand. Maybe a part of me doesn't want myself to be happy. Or maybe a part of me doesn't know how to handle happiness, since for so long I was depressed.
I am proud of myself for not having a full out binge yet. It's been about a week since my last binge and I enjoy the feeling of healthy eating. I've only made a few snacking errors but I'm still losing weight and that's all that matters to me right now. If I'm at 254 by Eva's birthday, which is in 5 days, I will be super happy. That's only 3.5 pounds to lose, I think I can definitely do it.
Diet Calendar Entries for 25 June 2012:
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1707 kcal
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Fat: 50.23g | Prot: 54.32g | Carb: 276.23g.
Lunch: fruit snacks market pantry, goldfish, monster beverage, del monte 100 calorie peaches, healthy choice rigatoni. Dinner: peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Snacks/Other: moose tracks ice cream, waffle cone, starbucks strawberry smoothie. more...
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3718 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 7 hours and 20 minutes, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Resting - 7 hours and 10 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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