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Im so proud of myself because I only ate two hot dogs, I was totally trying to convince myself to eat another one but then GOD provided a way out of that temptation so I promised HIM I wouldnt and I didnt. I stuck to my menu and that is that and I feel good. I also watched the biggest loser tonight and was really touched by the factory worker because he said that he doesnt know what happend but from one day to the next he was the size he is now. I feel the same way right now I was doing so good for so long, at a size I feel comfortable and confident at and out of nowhere I just lost track of taking care of me, that is so important. I use to complain about being 160 I still thought I was fat, but now I wish I could be that 32 pounds is a whole lot to deal with and my body doesnt spread out the wieght evenly so it does not look good on me. I really want to do it this time, I know I can and this time at 160 I am going to love my body, in fact I love my body right now, I really do, I look in the mirror and I dont see what I use to see, I see a beautiful strong woman who needs to be healthy for herself, her future and her kids. Who cares about the flab, the arm fat and the hangy belly, its all about being healthy feeling good and being the best me I can be, today 160 is that for me and when I wiegh that I will decide at that point whether or not I need to lose more, no more I need to wiegh 135 pounds, that is just not me right now.
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