Stormymix's Journal, 23 October 2017

Good morning diary. It's my birthday this week. as usual I'm taking the week off. I have just gone through my old journal entries and am very ashamed of myself. Over the last 5 years I have not only made no progress but I've gained 15kg. This only makes the task at hand so much more difficult and makes me feel worse about myself. I joined a gym in January this year and I have only been a handful of times. I tell myself that I'm too busy for gym but that is a lie. We make time for the things we really want to do. So clearly I don't really want to gym. Yes it's true... but it should not be a choice.

On YouTube I have been watching videos from a channel called Obese to Beast. He says in every video that there is no secret to weight loss... no magic pill. As long as u burn more calories than u consume then u will lose weight. He is quite inspirational but at the same time demotivating. It's hard to explain.

I'm not in a good space at the moment. I feel like a failure. The realisation of my situation hit me again last night as I was eating chocolates. 6 months ago I had to buy bigger panties because mine were too small. Now the same thing is happening with the bigger ones. Same thing with alot of my shirts. My belly is now hanging and peeks out from under my shirts. I see that in the mirror and I want to cry. I always used to look down on girls like that. Thinking... how can they expose their fat belly like that. Truth is... u don't know when it's showing until u see a mirror.

Maybe I could try go to gym today. No time like the present right?

Diet Calendar Entry for 23 October 2017:
260 kcal Fat: 16.00g | Prot: 3.30g | Carb: 27.00g.   Snacks/Other: Fritos Tomato. more...

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Stormy don't despair! This diary of yours comes with the support of a community of people who have gone through what you feel and are willing to support you. The entire idea of calories in vs calories out was always demotivating to me. One simply cannot burn up a bad consumption of food because it is far more easier to eat excess calories without much effort at all than to go and try to burn off those calories. This is where we get mislead to go to a gym daily to burn off the fat but after weeks of such commitment we get disappointed when the results don't match our efforts. That said, perhaps learn about different lifestyles that support weight/fat loss and try them out to see which lifeststyle is sustainable to you because everyone is different. Personally I follow 16:8 Intermittent Fasting combined with the 5:2 Fast Diet but I make it a 4:3 Fast Diet. Read up about it on www.thefastdiet.co.uk and u can also watch videos on youtube by Dr Mike Mosley. Feel free to ask for help anytime :) 
23 Oct 17 by member: Big Boy Optimus
Hi about this....I’m dreading going to the gym this afternoon but I’ve told myself that I’m going. I’ll be doing the 18:30 bootcamp class. Let’s do this & celebrate with a healthy chicken salad afterwards.  
23 Oct 17 by member: mistylee123
Hi, isn't it so that we are always hardest on ourselves? Remember you get a new opportunity every morning to start again, hang in there! 
23 Oct 17 by member: Annelizej40
Hi Stormy Hang in there! I tried the gym and without changing what you eat it won't really help much, but it does help if you find something you enjoy doing. I bought a treadmill I set up right in front of my tv so I could watch my favourite programs while I sweated - and then You Tube workout vidoes have been a life-saver. Getting used to doing strength training and all sorts of other workouts with Jessica Smith TV and now also using HASfit has helped me so much. In the beginning I bought alot of Women's Health magazine for inspiration and recipes, but now You Tube is my go to for inspiration too. I hope you find something you like - you might find a workout you'll enjoy. Then also you could just start walking every day. Start with just a few minutes and increase and within a few months you'll notice the difference! I'll be walking down to my local supermarket later just because I feel like it and the hill on the walk back feels like nothing now when I used to be huffing and puffing sweating myself silly before. You have to start somewhere - baby steps worked for me. Good luck!!! 
23 Oct 17 by member: Nikina70
You can't start over or change the past but you can create the future that you would like. Take this as day 1 of the future. 
23 Oct 17 by member: An3*
those who believe they can and those who believe they can't are both right.. you decide which one you are. Too often we lack respect for our bigger bodies, but what we don't realise is that that body of yours, the one you are hating so desperately today(like many other days) is the body that will help you achieve your goals. Your power is in your thinking. discipline over regret. Hope you find some strength. 
23 Oct 17 by member: MJR7
Hi Stormy!! I usually do not comment in such details on member journal entries, but your story really hit home. The opinion / comment below was pressing on my heart and I hope you find some type of resonance with it. In a situation like this I usually read all the comments and think to myself: "It is easy for all of you to say all of these nice things, but saying it and doing it are two different things." I think a lot of us was in very much the same situation as you. Something that you might not have thought about is that yes, we say all these things but we have also been through and are still going through some or all of the emotions that you have. So every time we encourage another member and you give us the opportunity to become part of your battle by sharing your story, we not only motivate you but again also motivate ourselves. For that I want to thank you!! Thank you for sharing your struggles with us and allowing us into such a difficult and painful area in your life. Even if you feel like a failure, thank you for being brave enough to face it. Even if the scale does not show the number you want to see, thank you for being honest with yourself and also sharing that number with us. You might not see it yet but you are already on your journey, maybe further than you might think! I want to urge you to keep on sharing so that we may uplift and encourage you on the days where you feel like a failure, feel rejected, feel ashamed, feel broken or feel that you are not good enough! Although we might not be able to make those emotions go away, you will know in the least that you are never alone. On those days we will all be here giving advice, lifting you up and helping you to see that you are enough. My prayer for you is a future where you do not just feel worthy, but realise and embrace the fact that you are the Kings daughter, you are WORTHY and you are so loved by Him! I wish you the best of luck in every step of this journey. 
24 Oct 17 by member: Fat to Fit 88
Good luck. I know that feeling of disappointment, but consistency is the key. Do something every day. We will be here, motivating.  
24 Oct 17 by member: Sam Windkind
dor worry.you're a real babe already 
24 Oct 17 by member: At3yu24
Only hard work and dedication will bring healthy results. Rather educate yourself about health. We are all different and our bodies work different too. Good luck on your journey xx 
25 Oct 17 by member: MuttonCurrie

     
 

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