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Emotional eating. Emotional eating. It's so hard to get beaten up. This is my biggest barrier to get my weight goal.
When I'm fine, I'm all energetic and motivated to eat healthy.
When I'm not fine, I start to be ratty. I eat to convert my negative or empty emotions to become a guilty one. So, I forget about my worry and ask myself why I eat in a huge amount.
I see it clearly. This is my problem. Even my bf can see it.
Since Sunday, I have been eating unhealthily.
Mom asked me to go back to visit her asap for 2 months. I'm not ready to go home yet because I have an event to attend (Friend got the ticket for me and I don't know how to say no and ask him to sell it for me), my bf needs me to be there for him when he has his hearing, I need to do some paperworks for my career registration, I need to have the car fixed. I have a lot of stuffs to do yet they push me to do whatever they want. I miss home. I'm just not ready yet.
I get really anxious these days. I had a lot of snacks last few days. They indeed made me feel good for a bit. This is the only thing that no one will interfere what I want to eat.
I feel like I have gained weight. I feel sloppy and unhealthy. I don't dare to weigh myself.
I know this is not right but I will be fine soon.
Happy Good Friday!
Diet Calendar Entry for 06 April 2012:
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224 kcal
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Fat: 1.22g | Prot: 16.19g | Carb: 51.77g.
Breakfast: artichoke, so good soy milk , tomato, Cruskits 98% Fat Free. more...
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