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March 03, 2010
Today I will do my best to stay on track. It has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I seem to be having fights with myself. Eat this, don't eat that, drink this, don't drink that....awful. I am accomplishing nothing by doing this. I need to set up a plan that will be easy and satisfying. Prepare food ahead of time, and shop correctly at the supermarket. That should make things a lot easier. I have a wonderful nutritional therapist who is helping me emotionally. She tells me that I must work on the emotional problem, and then we can start on the eating part. Well, I'm ready for the eating portion to begin. I was able to pack some good food choices for today. I also need to start moving. Yikes!! Not one of my favorite things. I guess I must look at it as a daily habit...like brushing my teeth. Things can't change if I don't make them happen. Baby steps, baby steps...that is what I will do. Back at you later....I'm back. This grazing stuff isn't too bad. I think I am enjoying the variety of things I am eating...instead of a lot of one thing. Flavors are good. I was only going to have 1/2 sandwich for lunch, but it did turn into a full sandwich...no guilt. I just enjoyed it. I still have snacks to eat, so I don't feel deprived. My mind set is very good. I know I am doing something good for myself. That makes a big difference in my attitude. I think I'll do a little reading now, then back to work in 20 minutes.
March 04, 2010
OMG...I feel terrific! Eating all day throughout the day. I am very aware of what I am eating. Getting in all the food groups. And I'm not feeling hungry at all. I guess I didn't really think I was suppose to really eat!! How silly was that! I thought I was suppose to eat when I was hungry, but a lot of times I was too hungry and I would eat the wrong things, and overeat. Now I'm eating every three hours or so and it seems to make a huge difference. I am trying to make peace with myself. Look at me for who I am and not how obese I am. Believe me, it feels alot better to do that than the other way around.
March 05, 2010
It's now 6:15 a.m. and I am aware of how I'm feeling. In just two days, I feel much better. Wanting to accomplish things more. It is because I'm not feeling sluggish. It is so awful to feel that way. Just an example ie, Last week I would have come straight to work from home and not gas my car up. Today, I didn't mind at all doing it before I came to work. I just have a bit more energy. Silly, but when I'm sluggish, I can't seem to want to do anything. Everything I need to do takes me longer than it should. I would try to push on instead of carring on!! There is a huge difference. I am taking a moment to pat myself on the back for a job well done.
I also have to admit that I haven't done any walking yet. I promise to start this weekend. I know it will be so good for me. Sorry, Pam, but I went to the store when I left you on Tuesday to make sure I had everything I need for Wednesday at work. I'm glad I did. I've just about made it through day 3.....Plan on walking with Honeygirl Saturday and Sunday. I still haven't change my "coming home from work" routine. I intend on succeeding with this on Monday.
March 06, 2010
I did it....went for a twenty minute walk on the beach with Honeygirl. At first, when I started, my legs were sore...then after 5 minutes, the soreness went away. Thank goodness. It was such a beautiful day. I didn't want to push it. I enjoyed my surroundings. Did plenty of housework this morning. So, I have been active most of the day. Relaxing now, updating my journal and my food diary. Stayed on track today. Had a different breakfast this morning since it's the weekend. Eggs, double fiber toast, fresh pineapple, strawberries and bananas. I don't seem to be craving anything. Great! A walk is definately in the plans for tomorrow. My attitude is much brighter and I feel so much better. Not sluggish like I was before. Yeahhhhh!
March 7, 2010
It's s Sunday and lots of things to do. Houswork of course...but I do have a walk scheduled with Honeygirl, this afternoon. Yes!! I kept busy all day and did manage to squeese my walk in....and what a great day it was. Sunny and it actually hit 56 degrees. I made sure I enjoyed my walk and not rush through it. This was time for me...Managed 20 minutes...and then took a ride to long sands, which is on my way home. The rest of the evening is for me...surfing the internet and watching a little bit of TV before bed. Another successful day....and I am patting myself on the back.
March 8, 2010
It's Monday and back to work. Much to do today which is a good thing. The day flew. Got my fruit in @ 7:00 (banana) and around 9:00 I had my bran flakes with skim milk and blueberries. At 1:00 I had my homemade chilli on a baked potato. It was delicious and filling. Left work at 3:00 with a cup of carrots and celery...1/2 cup fresh pineapple, and 1/2 cup canteloupe. Didn't get my walk in when I got home. Very windy. I will definately get one in tomorrow. Tonight I've had a cheese stick, a bake chicken drumstick, and 2 small wings. I plan on having some microwave popcorn later on. Have I mentioned how good I feel? Well, I feel good. I seem to be more focussed at work. Strange. I definately have found a little peace with myself and I am really taking care of Angie. I honestly thought it was very hard to do. I was really trying too hard. Now I just go with the flow and think of me first, as often as I can. I'm learning.
March 9, 2010
I have decided to send this off to you today, because this is when we would have had our meeting. I'm sure I would not have remembered all these thoughts, so now that they are all written down, it really expresses what I have been feeling and doing all week. It is the end of the first week and the beginning of a whole new journey. I will remember to take notes throughout this journey, to remind me of all the wonderful effort I have put into it, for me!! Still on track and moving forward.
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March 10, 2010
Guess I should keep journalling. Today is going great. Just finished lunch. Had the chili on the potato. I had a busy morning at work today. I do intend on going for a walk with Honeygirl, right when I get home. It's a nice day out there. Really nice to stay focussed. The journey continues.
Diet Calendar Entry for 03 March 2010:
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1149 kcal
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Fat: 31.44g | Prot: 68.65g | Carb: 153.96g.
Breakfast: banana, fat free milk, cheerios. Lunch: Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), light mayonnaise. Dinner: chicken wings. Snacks/Other: polly-o, PRETZEL STICKS, RAISINS, strawberries, carrots. more...
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