tina789789's Journal, 08 February 2017

Tina, first of all ANYONE who gives you crap or places blame on you for your weight is someone you should stay away from! YOU ARE A ROCK STAR!!!! I said this to someone else this morning and it goes for you too, the fact that you are here and willing to talk to us and let us support you shows what a freaking awesome winner you are!!!! Dont give up! 

Hey Tina, so this is my first day back on this app. I've struggled with my weight my whole life as well but it saddened my heart to hear you say these things. Today was just a rough day. Not even that this post was just a rough one. It should not bleed into the rest of your day. I know it can be frustrating at times and out struggle seems endless but you being on this app and speaking out to this community already shows just how dedicated you are. Just keep going. And don't stop until you're proud. Besides your happiness and success should not be measured in how "slim" or not you are. For me my goal in this journey is no longer "70 lbs" or to be "size medium" I just want to love myself and be able to go up a damn flight of stairs without my legs feeling like they set a fire that spread to my lungs. Anytime you start a thought like this post turn it around to a good one. One small battle at a time until the war is over ♥️ like gokona said we're here for a reason. We decide how we feel each and everyday so make this ride a good one. I believe in you. And in me. We've got this 😊 

I don't have a lot to say right now other than I wish could have given you a super HUGE HUG!!🤗 I know it's difficult, but we are hear to listen and encourage each other however we can and I am glad you are sharing.... Now I don't feel so bad after all...🤓I hope you will feel better soon. 

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Okay Tina... Going to go Dr Phil on you for a moment. Do you realize that from the moment you wake up until the time you go to bed, your weight fluctuates about 2 pounds? That's food, fluids, peeing, poo'ing, exercise, etc... so .2 pounds isn't that big a deal on the scale of life. The thing is... haven't you noticed that you are repeating a pattern, one that all of us have dealt with? Instead of thinking, "Okay... point 2 pounds up. Am I getting ready to start my period? Did I eat something that was high in sodium? Did I go a little too hard with the weights yesterday?" You instantly went to "AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!! Point 2 pounds! I'm FAILING!!!" It use to be we would do that.... get so down on ourselves and then run for food. We can't do that anymore. Part of having the surgery is learning new life skills. We can no longer look for a reason to fail, but a reason to succeed. Change the way you think. Recognize that that inner voice we all have isn't your friend at times. It's okay to shut its damn yap. :) It's easy to say it, but hard to implement it sometimes. I am 21 months out from my surgery (May 2015). Highest weight: 340 Now: 178 and holding. I still struggle with it, but I recognize it for what it is... and I tell myself that my old habits never did my ANY favors. Good luck...