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OK, yesterday, Sunday, was the end of my first two weeks on this diet. It's getting easier. My hubby says it takes 3 weeks (21 days) to change a habit, but I can feel this one already changing. I had sunflower seeds, cashews and an orange juice (on the road on the way to church) for breakfast; some grapes for lunch; a fish filet, pan fried in EVOO, with saffron rice and frozen veggies and kimchee for supper; another handful of grapes before bed. Forget the kimchee next time; it was doing the samba in my intestines all night long! I was craving something with a sharp, spicy taste. The hardest part of this diet is that it's so bland and boring. After week 2, today I'm technically at teh beginning of the Weeks 3-4 phase, and I can have more foods, but I think they're nuts and seafood -- which technically I've already been having occasionally. So there's nothing really exciting about this next phase, except I feel proud of myself for sticking with a pretty rigid diet for 2 weeks without a single fudging episode. I crave carbs MUCH LESS now. The first week was hard; after dinner I SO wanted something sweet. Now the grapes seem to do it for me. I wonder if my metabolism is slowing down? I have an exercise bike on the front porch, but it's dusty, and when I try to ride, the dust blows up in my face (boo hoo). I'm going to have to brave it. I don't want to slow down to adjust to this new amount of calories per day. Grocery shopping has been hard; I've been sending hubby with a list, and he comes back with beef sticks and kimchee. Geez. For me, he bought bananas, grapes, more canned albacore tuna, and I think that's it. Oh, more organic eggs. And organic milk, but I"m not sure how I can use it yet. I have no real craving for it; eating lots of cottage/ricotta cheese/yogurt now. Yesterday I wore my black jeans to church. I haven't been able to fit into them for a couple of months now, so that felt really, really good. I got a shorter haircut, too, just to celebrate my beauty. I might dye my hair red. I want to look different.
Sometimes I daydream about the things I can do when I'm thinner. Appear in public. Travel. See people from my past. Be physically active. Swim at the beach. Confront anyone, any time. Put myself OUT THERE. Wear makeup. Shop in the non-plussed section (hehehe). Order from catalogs and know things will probably fit. NOT always look for the biggest available size of things. Work out at Curves. Have my double chin lifted (unless it disappears on its own. it is my LEAST favorite body part, by far. Second is my belly. Third, my sagging breasts, although they still look pretty good in the right bra. Fourth, and rising, my gigantic upper arms.) I'm going to buy a leather jacket again when I can get one in a SIMPLE XL. Then, when I'm just a L, I'll give the XL to a fatter friend. I have a beautiful pink suede blazer in my closet, wrapped up and waiting for me, unworn, that I bought when I broke my ankle. Couldn't wear it then, and then I gained so much weight recuperating that I never did get to wear it. But I WILL!
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