BPaula47's Journal, 04 November 2016

Hi, hi, Hi gang.

How’s every little thing?

I’m a little ho hum tonight. This time of the year sometimes gets me down. It’s gonna be a tough one this year, too. The family seems to all have issues and things going on that are a little daunting. we're all missing my big brother. It's been little over a year since he passed away. I thought last Holiday time was tough without him. this one seems like it's gonna be worse. A marriage is possibly breaking up, two of my nephews are struggling to find their way becoming young men and Karen and I are struggling with food. She can’t seem to move the scale and get her eating habits in order and I am just struggling to stay on the plan I set for myself. The holidays make me crave those comfort foods my Mama used to make years ago. They are traditions in our family and the younger ones want to stick to them, but I just can’t. I feel bad for them. Here it is we grew up with all this tradition around this time of year and now we have to change the game on them. We’ve decided not to have a big dinner this year and instead go to the movies. We haven’t told the kids yet (my youngest niece and nephews). Well, one of them is 21 and I don’t think he’ll care much, but the other is just 18 and he loved Christmas and thanksgiving dinners. He’s just old enough to remember what they used to be like. But I can’t do it any more and still stay within my calorie count. I don’t have that discipline down yet. Too new with all this.

I have gotten to the point where I’m honest about what I eat on meal plan even when I veer from it. I count it and if that means I’m done eating for the day without having eaten what I was supposed to, oh well. Today is a good example. I indulged and I am going to be real about it and count it cause other wise what’s the point of doing this? Oh Lord, I’m rambling.

Okay, on a more positive note, I got my treadmilling in, half an hour straight through, no stopping. Happy about that. I’m ready for my dumbbell workout tomorrow, too. Wow, look at that! The thing I thought would be the hardest for me is actually shaping up, my exercise routine. Okay, so on staying positive, my clothes are fitting better. I just noticed that today. So things aren’t as gloomy as I first thought.

…and this too, shall pass.

Good night ya’ll. I’m sending you blessings, prayers, peace and love.

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1296 kcal

Fat: 48.34g | Prot: 84.72g | Carb: 142.63g.   Breakfast: Shedd's Spread Plus Calcium & Vitamins Spread Vegetable Oil, 7 Sprouted Grains English Muffins, Fully Cooked Turkey Sausage Patties. Lunch: Broccoli Pancakes, Jumbo Lump Crab Cakes. Dinner: Baby Carrots, Red Bell Pepper, Cucumber (with Peel), Ancient Grain Encrusted Cod, Funyuns Onion Flavored Rings (Grab Bag). Snacks/Other: Bottled Water, Sugar Free Dark Chocolate Pudding Snack, Dark Sweet Cherries, Unsweetened Almond Milk, 800 Strawberry Shake Mix, 800 Chocolate Bar. more...

4969 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Treadmill - 32 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 28 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...