Totally failed yesterday. It was a hard day full of conflict and I reverted back to my old methods of comfort. I was very kindly suggesting to some pro life advocates that their approach was having the opposite of the intended effect and that throwing around words like "murderer" was only going to upset people and no fewer abortions would take place. I am pro choice, because i believe if its not happening in my own uterus its between you and your god. But apparently that makes me a baby killer... no matter how i tried to keep it civil, respectful and educational, i was met with bullying.
I dont care if your view is different from mine, I DO care if you have to resort to jugement name calling and put downs in order to feel heard.
So yeah... i was really sad last night. Some really triggering things were said to me and I feel raw and spent today.
Usually, I am an activist. Vocally promoting women's rights and providing information on sex education and resources for abused women.
Today I am sad and I will drink my tea and cry a bit that no matter how much i love people, sometimes they are cruel jerks. that sometimes they threaten you with rape over the internet just because you don't agree. that sometimes, other people are not capable of empathy if it doesn't align with their agenda.
Tomorrow I will be an activist again... today its going to take all my willpower not to say fuck it and eat everything that isnt nailed down.
Diet Calendar Entry for 02 August 2016:
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Fat: 56.60g | Prot: 83.08g | Carb: 138.11g.
Breakfast: Green Tea, Billy Bee Honey, Pure Garcinia Cambogia Extract. Lunch: Red Table Wine, Great Value Marble Farmers Cheese, Marketside Leafy Romaine Salad, Omaha Steaks Beef Top Sirloin Steak (4 oz). Dinner: Kraft Mayo with Olive Oil, No Name Flaked Light Tuna in Water, Sargento Mozzarella Shredded Cheese, Pepperidge Farm Whole Grain Ancient Grains Bread. Snacks/Other: Fruit Yogurt (Lowfat with Low Calorie Sweetener), Water, Fiber One 90 Calorie Lemon Bar, Peek Freans LifeStyle Cranberry Citrus Oat Crunch Cookies, Laughing Cow Mini Babybel Light Cheese. more...
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I respect you for standing up for what you believe in. You are not a failure!! Small minded judgmental people do not deserve one second of your time. Keep your chin up and go on knowing you are doing the very best you can
02 Aug 16 by member: PGM012197
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You are an activist because you are passionate...and the other side of that coin means you have high sensitivity. The resistance you encountered must have hit you at a crack in your prep. as it could be expected that the pushback would include judgment and hurtfulness. So take the day to calm, honor your calling, and consider taking on battles on days you feel strong and capable. Others can carry the message on days you are more vulnerable. I appreciate your struggle with caring about humanity but finding humans to be offensive....been there myself. Find your balance....j
02 Aug 16 by member: JJohnso
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Great words JJohnso. Bryndenbabe22 - Don't let them get the better of you. They are winning in a sense, if you let them get to you and then you eat things that you don't want to. Time to develop some armour. They don't know you, therefore what they say should not be taken personally. If a close friend spoke to you that way, you would have reason to react and be sad, but people that are mean that you don't know, really shouldn't matter. Armour on.
03 Aug 16 by member: jtidsy4
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