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I've been absent from this site for a while. WHY? Good question. No answer is a good one so I'll move on.
My daughter turned 5 this past week. I've lost 90 lbs during her 5 years of life. I sometimes forget that the reason I've even been motivated to lose any weight is for the future of my family. When I lose sight of the fact that I'm doing this to be a better mother; live a long time; and set a good example for my children, I lose my way and start to eat poorly again. When I do this for vanity, it doesn't work at all. When I remind myself that I'm doing this for my kids, it's so much easier.
I wish the diet journal had a space to include all the food that we're tempted with throughout the day but choose not to eat. For example, today I did not eat:
1) a chocolate doughnut
2) chips and salsa
3) a hot dog
4) a churro
5) mashed potatoes
6 leftover birthday cake (MY FAVORITE)
Don't worry...I'm not saying people have to stay away from everything that brings them pleasure. And even though I didn't fill out my food journal at all today, I can tell you I ate enough and I ate healthy food. I believe in having a little bit of what you want as long as you include it in the calorie count...but in order to get back on track, I have to do a week or two of cold turkey on some things and then re-introduce them back in to my life in small amounts.
I didn't even feel tortured by not eating the things listed above. Last week, I would have eaten them all without worrying too much about it (that's how far off track I had gotten). Today, however, I just decided I was done. I had even gone to McDonald's yesterday and could barely eat what I had ordered...that's actually when I realized I needed to regain my focus...that and the fact that my daughter just turned five.
The other thing I think is so incredible is how sugar produces such strong cravings. MAYBE some of this is mental but I decided not to have any sugar in my coffee this morning and then continued to stay away from it all day and it was 100 times easier to stick to my healthier eating goals. I had been having sugar in my coffee and just counting it towards the total calories but I'm starting to realize how much it derails my efforts.
I will weigh in tomorrow to see where I am in comparison to my last weigh-in on FS. I am a few pounds up but not more than five. We'll see what the scale says in the morning.
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