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Good morning FS friends
Just wanted to say thank you for your support. It means the world.
This has been an emotional time where I seem to cycle between sorrow and anger. Angry that he died. Angry at how he died and the aftermath. Angry that he died intestate. Angry that because he died intestate I am a person without status despite being the one who knew him best, subsidised him through periods where his income was too low to support his debt, spent the most time with him. Nursed him through his surgeries (many through the years whether by accident or health related). Frustating, aggravating and sad. Even memorial arrangements are out of my hands. Likely why I've been doing the pilgrimage of our places and spreading tiny bits of his ashes on my own. On the up side, I don't need or want for anything as a hardworking, frugal lifestyle has led to a home I love and an early debt free retirement. That my parents left me their assets helped too. None of this came to pass because of him. I need to remember that.
Today, off to physio, then foot doctor.
Tomorrow. A haircut. The sideeffect of the recent stress and defective diet is that my hair is falling out. I offered to shave my head in support of his chemo journey, but he loved my long hair and preferred I not cut it off. We'll see what the hairdresser recommends. As life normalises, stress subsides and food intake is better balanced odds are the hair will start to stay on my head again.
Seems that if it's not one thing, it's another.
And so it goes
Over and out
Diet Calendar Entry for 09 July 2024:
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1221 kcal
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Fat: 19.82g | Prot: 128.86g | Carb: 144.21g.
Breakfast: Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Creamy Chocolate Fudge, GNC Wheybolic Classic Vanilla. Lunch: Sweet Cherries (Queen Anne, Bing), Gatorade G2 Perform 02 - Cool Blue. Dinner: Skinless Chicken Breast, Renee's Gourmet Mighty Caesar Dressing, Everything Veggie Salad. Snacks/Other: Pineapple, GNC Whey Protein Powder, Bell Plantation PB2 Powdered Peanut Butter. more...
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