unity1234's Journal, 09 October 2023

I have been thinking about the relationship between our perspective (the meanings we assign to life), perception (the way life feels), and how we experience life.  

They seem to feed each other. Which is not my concept... I have read this in books.  

But what I really needed was a way to take those lofty concepts and bring them home to something more practical. It seems (for me) that I will feel in a certain way and that emotion will cause me to behave in reaction. Not really news. But what I was not fully aware of was that there was a thought about my situation that caused the emotion. But I was not noticing it because I was used to reacting to emotions. 

When I was quiet, I noticed the thoughts... I noticed a lot of thoughts... and I noticed that I did not agree with many of the thoughts that were behind my strong emotions. I was associating a feeling with a thought in which I did not believe... 

Once I sorted through which thoughts were lies I told myself about myself and about situations, I was better able to put them in their place. As in, not causing my behavior. 

My thoughts seem to be related to my larger ideas about life and the meanings I have created from my life's experiences. Many of which were very old and no longer applicable. 

I view life recently as someone experiencing Pronoia which is the world conspiring to do well for me. Even perceived wrongs can be looked at as a learning experience. Continue to be kind and kindness will circle back to you. Have a great day unity1234 

Chicago Ken, yes! being someone I love has been a keystone for me, as well. And love the comment on deciding how to look at life's situations. Life's meanings are created by us, not dictated to us. Be someone you love not someone you think someone else will love. This way, you are the truth about you. 💙 

Very Insightful and informative 🙌🏾 Thanks for sharing this 

Alindsey83t, thank you! It still needs more work but I'm close now. My thoughts often (still now) do not align with my own personal truth. But they create emotions in me, which in turn, cause behavior, or at the very least, mental anguish. So getting my thoughts in line should help. Certainly, understanding their origin is a way to determine if they are based in observed reality or the past emotions I carry around. 😅 

I like that...Be someone you love, not someone you think someone else will love ❤️ 

SherryeB, thank you! I've spent all of my life being someone I thought others would love. There are many, many reasons for this. But at the end of the day, I lost something very precious in a million acts of self-betrayal. They were subtle and not so subtle... but they never stopped the real me from coming out. The problem was, the real me was coming out sideways, if you will, because she was not acknowledged... I was unaware of myself.  

very cool  

Thanks OTB! 

So freeing, nice insights. I work daily to live in my truth. (some days it’s not easy) ❤️💔❤️‍🩹💝