Sharons Victory's Journal, 18 October 2022

Have to get this off of my chest..

I had a terrible Birthday weekend….the day before my Birthday I received a message from a woman telling me that the man i’ve been dating on and off for the past 8 months has been her boyfriend the entire time, and is now her fiancé. She then proceeded to message and call me the entire weekend - even sent me pictures of him flipping me off and telling me that "he told me to send that" and I got texts saying "F you, leave us alone" with a text following saying "that was him". I was just honest with her about everything - gave her any details she wanted...according to her he continued to lie and attempted to minimize and downplay what we had as much as possible....this man was seeing me 1-2 times a week and was even trying to move in and told me he loved me.

I’m in California and she’s in Colorado. I knew he’d just moved here and so I did ask him if he was seeing anyone in Colorado when we first met and he said no - she claims he’s been flying back to see her and they've been together this entire time.

I was crushed - and to make matters worse, he denied ever knowing me initially but then did fess up and said he only saw me because he was, according to her "lonely, bored, and h*rny" and she said he said I was "so fat and disgusting that he never took me anywhere because he was ashamed to be seen with me" :(

In the old days this would have killed me - and it still does hurt a lot, but not to the extent that it would have in the past.'

I’ve been fit before and can be fit again - but his fiancé that told me that to seemingly purposely make herself feel better, and him - that’s a liar and a cheat that may have really said it - they have ugliness in their heart and you can’t just lose that with some diet and exercise.

I’m glad I got fat again so I had this reminder that my weight doesn’t define me and the prettiness in my heart matters most, and my real friends are those that treat me with love and kindness and respect regardless of my weight and those that truly believe I’m still deserving of love and respect from others.

Just because I’m fat, it doesn’t make it ok to treat me like less than or garbage.

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2147 kcal

Fat: 128.80g | Prot: 170.44g | Carb: 96.24g.   Breakfast: Low Carb Tortilla, Dave's Killer Bread Nuts & Grains Bread, Jif Extra Crunchy Peanut Butter, Pork Chops (Center Loin, Bone-In, Cooked, Broiled) , Tattooed Chef Organic Riced Cauliflower Stir-Fry, Muscle Milk Pro Series Knockout Chocolate, Two Good Vanilla Greek Yogurt, Coffee-Mate Sugar Free Creamy Chocolate Coffee Creamer. more...