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wow, the scale's finally going down it's good to look at that history going down and not going back up...
it's been a rough week, but I've been good. (well except for the water which I'm supposed to be doing as part of the challenge *rolls eyes*) anyway, I've been pretty proud of myself. I mean I've made really positive choices and dispite what my mother says I'm doing fine.
my ring's sliding, hopefully it will come off soon. maybe one morning I'll wake up without it and freak out. (for those who don't know, I put on this really pretty ring and didn't take it off, well my fingers swelled up and I can't get it off. Everyone's said I can cut it, but I'd rather lose enough weight to slip it off and replace it with a nicer ring.)
exersize and writing have started to be non issues for me. I have a little notebook in which goes all the food that I eat and I mark off those days that I exersize too. I mean it helps a lot. and because it's so small I can slip it into my purse should I have to go to a restaraunt.(sp?) Michael's sells some nice monogrammed ones, should anyone be interested...
I'm finding that because of my journalling and because of my food and exersize that I'm focusing better. is that weird? the number one thought on my mind is "3500 calories = 1 pound" so whenever I go to slip something into my mouth, even a drink, I'm thinking about it, and going hmm... do I really need it? nope. and I'll switch to water.
the other problem is that I don't think I'm going to beat my mom, or get to the weight I want to by the time I go home in September. and I thought of it today as I was walking and I kinda got that "I'm going to give up" feeling that I'm so used to, and I did something that I never thought I'd do. I focused on something else. like really thought about something else. I don't know what it was, I wish I could tell you, because it was awesome!! But whatever it was I stopped thinking about giving up. I realized that I'm not losing for my mom, or to make my family jealous or anything else for that matter I'm doing this for me. And even tho it might take me a while before I look like I want to, or even close to the weight I want to be at, this is me wanting to lose weight for me. (quite an ephiphany huh?)
so that's my report for now, it's late and I have some stuff to do tomorrow
*poof*
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