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I think I said yesterday that when it rains it pours... I wish I had kept my mouth shut. now we don't have rain but Tornados. I live in Alabama and the area around my house has been destroyed. I am in Texas for work and have a flight scheduled to get into Birmingham tomorrow. Problem is, there is no electricity in Cullman and therefore, no fuel. People have stolen all the gas out of one of the cars and the dear Darling Husband has been running around town in the other doing rescue work. I live an hour away from the airport and nobody has gas to come get me. Husband does not want me to come home. (Maybe that is due to personal issues or maybe not) work said I have to go home because the airport is open and there is electricity at the Birmingham office. So I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.
Found out the hubby has been telling his sister things that may not be true. She would not tell me exactly what he has said but siad she did not think he was telling her the truth. SHe said he is a loser who will not grow up and take responsibility for his actions and that he is trying to find someone to blame for his life. I think she is pretty correct except I don't think he is a loser. I just think he has a warped idea of success and thinks that because he is not rich or famous or on easy street that he is a failure. He does not see success as having someone love you and working together for a common goal. It is all about reaching the stars for him. He is not finding success as it is and wants to blame me for it. I can't take that blame. I know I am responsible for my actions and I can't clame him for my troubles. He can either figure that out for himself or not. At 57 years old, I am think it will be not. he will run off with someone else and blame me for making his life hell and tell lies to someone new until they figure him out. Then the cycle will start again. I hope so much that i am not correct but .... I am very afraid.
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Elizabeth - first, I am just so sorry about all of the devestation in your community - and I do hope (perhaps work) can find someone to get out to the airport, or cover the cost of a cab or something, to get you home. Did your personal home get destroyed? I sure hope not, but will be lifting you in prayer!!! As for the actions, or inactions of your husband - at 57 yrs old, he sounds like a man who is afraid. Afraid that life is passing him by, and he will never truly realize his dreams. (at least the 'success' dreams you described). It doesn't sound like he is the easiest person to converse with - but I am praying for him too! That he will wake up and see what he currently has in his life, before it's too late. It all changes in an instant. As these tornados are proof of! Maybe he will get a new perspective over these couple of days immediately following this disaster. I know you are afraid - I would be too, but you obviously can't change him. But God can... so I am praying that HE intervene! Much Love!!!
28 Apr 11 by member: jsfantome
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Elizabeth, I am so sorry to hear that your home town was affected by these storms. I will be praying for you and all those who have been impacted. As for hubby, I already told you what I think...I suspect that, as much as you hate to admit it, you know what is true and what needs to be done. I will be praying for you and your hubby to have some healing. If he does not want to change, nothing you can do will change him...you can only change yourself and how you let him affect who you are. Hugs, sweet lady! I will be keeping you in my prayers for the destruction from the storms of yesterday, and also the turmoil in your marriage. God bless!
28 Apr 11 by member: ctlss
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Thank you both for the prayers. We were very lucky in that our house is OK. There will be lots to clean up on our property but nothing devistating. My Grandmother's house has a tree on it. But she and my Mother are OK. It apparently was not damaged to the point that they have to leave it. We are very blessed that we did not lose our homes or our family. They have almost reached 200 dead in our state and I can't say how blessed we are enough times. I heard that 2 of our workers are still missing. I am not sure what cities they worked from. I am praying they will be found OK. It is difficult emotionally - I want to be there but I also am glad I am not there. I am very torn but I am trying to believe that i am here for a reason and that maybe being away from there is good in some way. Maybe it has helped free up my Dear darling to go out and help with the rescue efforts. He does not have to deal with me being home and that may help him concentrate on helping people. At least I hope so. There is always a reason....
28 Apr 11 by member: esimnons
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