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Hi everyone!!
I miss fat secret!! It's been just about a month since I moved out of my house. I've been without a kitchen or a weight scale this whole time, and I can feel my love handles bulging out again. I miss cooking and eating healthy and seeing the numbers on the weight scale change - sometimes in the right direction. I haven't been logging consistently since I know that I'm unable to eat wisely during this time of transition. I have many days when I buy all of my meals for the day, and I really don't trust that the healthy options out there are actually healthy. I also distrust the freshness of served food. I mean, I like to eat out but not 24/7! I can't wait to have my new apartment and get back to cooking, weighing in, logging and journaling. I feel so disconnected right now from my weight loss goals and from the fat secret community. I can't believe so much time has passed! I miss you all!
In the past month, I did so much:
I moved my belongings into storage,
I psuedo celebrated my birthday in the midst of hella stress,
I got in a car crash (but thankfully got my check from the other parties' insurance provider to fix my car),
I intensely studied for and took the GRE,
I started grad school,
I found an apartment I super like and secured tenancy,
I started walking heavily again (my runners injury is healing nicely!) - many miles a day sometimes,
I've been studying a lot after work, during lunch and on weekends (a lot!!)
and
I've been staying at different people's houses and living a bit out of my car.
EDIT: I also started eating foods again after 8 weeks of not doing so following my wisdom teeth extraction. And guess what: I crave meat!! Bacon is yummy.
This past month passed by pretty quickly, I feel, but I can really feel its passage now that I'm finally journaling here. I wonder what my weight is. I bet I gained 4-7 pounds, and I don't want to punish myself about it. It's okay. I had a lot going on and it's going to be fine. I'll get a routine soon and incorporate everything I've learned over the past four years. And the weight will be in control again.
The central issue in my life now is getting settled into my new apartment and then finding balance. I get the keys to my new apartment tomorrow and will be moved in by Tuesday morning. I don't have many things, but I'll get those slowly (fridge, stove, living room, random things for bathroom and bedroom). With time, I hope to find a balance between full time employment and part time grad school so I can get back on track and keep losing weight. I want to stay focused and get to that 100 pound weight loss mark eventually! It may not be by the end of the year as I had hoped, but it will happen! (Or perhaps it will be the end of year! A girl's gotta dream.)
Mark my words!! I'm coming back to fat secret soon!!
:D
Diet Calendar Entry for 28 August 2014:
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1804 kcal
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Fat: 47.15g | Prot: 97.57g | Carb: 301.75g.
Breakfast: Sugared or Glazed Doughnuts, Bananas, Kroger Lowfat pina colada yogurt. Lunch: Rambutan Thai pad sew ew. Dinner: Panera Bread Caramel Latte, Blueberry Muffins. more...
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