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Had a HORRENDOUS w/e. u know its one thing to overeat yummy or junk food. but when u overeat crap... why thts just sick :(. I hate the behaviour,not myself.
so today was a good day. i was so tempted not to train. woke up and my face looked like a blowfish. obviously my cells didnt know WHAT to do with all the glycogen i had forcefed them.
Do I sound angry? im not. just disappointed in myself. its so hard. im so tempted to just give up and get really really really really fat. im not even overweight. im muscled and my bmi is still within in the normal range. compared to most women im quite slim. have been a size 8-10 (UK) most of my life. so why do i push myself to be IDEAL??? Because i strive for excellence, i strive to be the best me i can be. and that drives me nuts! im crazy. sometimes i wish i cud just be average and SETTLE like everyone else. sometimes i wish i cud be content with average. but no, i have to seek excellence. damn, its tough being me :)
Diet Calendar Entries for 14 March 2011:
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1082 kcal
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Fat: 17.73g | Prot: 78.40g | Carb: 156.58g.
Breakfast: Fabulite Fat Free Vanilla Yoghurt (artificially sweetened), Gala Apples, Pure Protein IGF-1, Milk (Nonfat), Oats. Lunch: baked potato, tuna, lettuce, tomato, Trim Low Oil Dressing. Dinner: Lamb, potato, peas & carrots. Snacks/Other: Pears. more...
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2014 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Driving - 3 hours and 45 minutes, Exercise machine (moderate) - 40 minutes, Resting - 11 hours and 35 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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