I am trying to do a lot of reflection lately, of my journey so far and where I want to go from here. I haven't been doing as well as I was hoping I would do, and it really is starting to bother me. However I know I have no one to blame but myself. From where I was 7 months ago, I'm a lot happier and a lot healthier. I lost 20 pounds from my starting weight and learned I have the ability to be in full control of my life. It feels wonderful to know that I can do that, but my motivation to continue is waning. For the past few months, my love of food has been overcoming my ability to say no, and I cant seem to get back into the swing of things. I want to reach my goals, I want to be healthy, and skinny, and wear cute clothes, and I know exactly how I need to do it. I've already proven to myself that I can, so why wont I allow myself to? At first I was incredibly comfortable, being 20 pounds down, basking in the enjoyment of being significantly smaller than I have been for the past two years. But I'm starting to grow uncomfortable again and I need to adjust my mindset. I would love to eventually reach my goal weight. I would love to not be petrified to go wedding dress shopping, or be able to wear a bikini again. I'm only young once, and I hate the thought of regretting my 20's because I'm overweight. I'm actually really close to being out of the "obese" BMI range, and being in the "overweight" BMI range. I cant wait for that day to come, but unless things change, it wont come.
Sorry for my long rant, I just need to get my thoughts in order.
Hope everyone is having a fabulous day!
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 July 2014:
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1416 kcal
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Fat: 42.92g | Prot: 61.79g | Carb: 198.21g.
Breakfast: Green Tea, Safeway Sugar Free Apple & Cinnamon Instant Oatmeal. Lunch: Canada Dry Ginger Ale (20 oz), Tuna in Water (Canned), Broccoli, Ragu Classic Alfredo Pasta Sauce, Great Value Elbow Macaroni. Dinner: Wegmans Philadelphia Roll, Wegmans Rainbow Skinny Roll. Snacks/Other: Quaker Chewy Granola Bars (Variety Pack), Fiber One Chewy Bars - Oats & Chocolate, Breakstone's Cottage Doubles Lowfat Cottage Cheese & Pineapple. more...
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2134 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Personal Training - 1 hour, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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