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My body's getting use to not receiving food like before, It has no choice, not giving in to what it's use too, wanting to eat healthier, started Keto, then started OMAD FASTING as well, stopped the sodas, juices, chips, sweets, all junk period. I've avoided taking pictures & refused to look in mirrors in the past, but faced my fear, stepped in front of a mirror, knowing I'm huge but seeing what I really look like, God Knows, it hurt so much, what I saw made me cry, as I stared at myself, it was like looking at a stranger, the eyes is mine, I know it's me, but this face and body is not what I use to look like in the mirror, I use to admire myself, felt feminine and sexy, now as I look at what I am now, a huge whale on shore that can't get back in the sea, I thought to myself. The mirror revealed a prisoner, a prisoner trapped in my own body. My feeling a sense of accomplishment in dropping a size in dress and being complimented was short lived the moment I looked in my daughter's full bodied mirror. Working out is so hard due to my obese body, makes certain simple movements difficult, everything on me hurts, pushing myself despite the pain, but!! that mirror and what I see looking back, the eyes of a person with tears draining from sad, hurt pleading eyes, that desires freedom, hurts more, physically the pain in time stops but psychologically could be permanent. I'm determined to break down this high, thick wall, with dark clouds all around, making the long tunnel even more darker and impossible to see. My God is with me, he's the way, the truth and he is the light, he promised he'll never leave me or forsake me, that he's with me in my times of troubles, to have no fear, that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and in this, I'm comforted and have hope. My trust is in the Lord Jesus Christ, I can't do it alone, he's so loving and patient, he walks with me and talks with me, he tells me that I am his own. The road on this journey is not easy, but with the Lord on my side and with his help, through trust, his strength, faith, me working hard, because faith without work is dead, I'm more than conquerors through him who loves me. In the name of Jesus Christ victory is mine.
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 May 2021:
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658 kcal
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Fat: 47.17g | Prot: 43.02g | Carb: 14.54g.
Dinner: Baby Spinach, Mushrooms, Kraft Finely Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese, Kroger Breakfast Sausage Links, Red Onions, Chicken Thigh, Tomatoes. more...
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5549 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 17 hours, Sleeping - 7 hours. more...
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Good morning Donniemae. Some days words aren't enough, sending you love, hugs and prayer💞💞💞😘😘🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽.
There is the woman in the mirror but what about the woman in your vision, the Donniemae 6 months and 1 year and 3 years from now. It's time to introduce them to each other, let the lady in the mirror know she is loved but that she will soon become the vision you have for your healthy self. Visualize, visualize, visualize and now crush it Sis💪🏽🥗.
Begin your exercise slowly, better to build up very gradually, adding on time in increments, I started with maybe 15mins but with so many stops let's say it was 7mins.
I encourage myself with transformation stories, here is a link for two, there are many more out there, you've got this Sis, much love to you and blessings 🙏🏽💕😘.
https://youtu.be/BlejS6M_CFc
https://youtu.be/l-K8DiiLO5o
22 May 21 by member: Daughter of the_King
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Donniemae while praying for you I heard "Pray and Fast", God is looking to break every chain in your life, talk to Him about what He would have you do in this regard.
A corporate pray and fast started my weight loss journey, I was pressing in for a deeper relationship with God and other breakthroughs, not even thinking about my weight and He broke the chains that kept me in that prison and started me on this healthy lifestyle journey , so when I say that God did this transformation I am serious! I will fast and pray with you if you want me to, gotta carry each other's burdens as Christ would have us to. Blessings 🙏🏽💕
22 May 21 by member: Daughter of the_King
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Blessings Donnie! I myself am so proud of you, can you imagine the Lord? You’re doing it, and doing it right leaning on the Lord. Enjoy your Spectacular Saturday!🌸🌼👍
22 May 21 by member: Shrewdness
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Amen. I feel exactly the way that you do, a prisoner trapped in a body that I don't recognize. The first step is acknowledging it and working towards change, which you already did by losing a dress size..that is a huge accomplishment. Keep going, baby steps....
22 May 21 by member: zumbachic
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you go girl I can identify with almost everything you said. Thank you very much for sharing. Helped me get my head on straight this morning. All is well God is good.
22 May 21 by member: kathleengazzara
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yes, I drank a diet soda 2 days in a row...no weight loss on those days. connection?
I dont want anyone to see my fat body either.
22 May 21 by member: lydium
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You are an amazing individual and never, ever forget that. The mirror, the scale & the tape measure are only tools to keep us on track. Rely on your heart & mind for your true results. Slow & steady, remember you didn't get to obese overnight and you shouldn't strive to lose it overnight. I'm 24/7 if you should want some support...we all are. Keto on kiddo.
22 May 21 by member: Alnona
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Don't forget God says "Fear Not", you are going to make it, it's our fears that bring us down, Have Faith in God and Faith in yourself, you can do it.
22 May 21 by member: phyllisbly
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Keep in faith. You will be successful. Rooting for you.
22 May 21 by member: Benjamined
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The deal is — take one day at a time. Don’t think so far into the future that you become overwhelmed. If you have access to a pool I would highly suggest joining or using. You can do so much more movement and exercise in water than you can on land and with the same benefit. One of the early people I mentored on their weight loss journey weighed more than 400 lb. . She lost 250 lb in two years without even feeling like she was dieting. She went to the pool and exercised (and she could swim) and she went out every Friday with her work group for 2 pieces of pizza and a beer. We removed the concept of guilt from her life, reinforced the idea that there are no bad, evil foods. She began to see that by eating healthier, more portion controlled on ho-hum work days allowed her to enjoy social activities and have pizza with the gang on Friday. Another person, a gal, lost 175 lb in a year without ever feeling like she was dieting. Learning to cook was a nudge boon. Store bought food, even many frozen foods are not good choices. And, she walked and eventually became a 10 k runner. This can be done! You can do it also.
22 May 21 by member: Kenna Morton
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And BTW- no one has ever regained the weight. Not even after 30 years.
22 May 21 by member: Kenna Morton
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Don’t be so hard on yourself. We all are here fighting the same battle just at different levels. Baby steps. One thing I found was to try different diets. When I starting feeling deprived and depressed I ventured on trying another way of eating. Long range is to find a diet that works for you that you can use long term. Thanks for sharing
22 May 21 by member: Irishdancer126
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i love the plaque. I tried to copy it and put it on 'my story'.
22 May 21 by member: lydium
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You can do it Donniemae!!! It is going to take some time and there will be days when you feel like you'll never get there. Just keep at it!!! It will happen! Just like you have faith in Jesus, you need to have faith in the process of weightloss. It takes alot of patience. It helps to prioritize a few things and when you feel you're struggling focus on completing those minimum few goals. If you focus on climbing the mountain, rather than the steps it feels overwhelming. One step at a time! Don't beat yourself up. Also, learn to love and accept yourself as you are right now. I'm not saying don't take action. But, take it from me. Even when we get to goal, it's easy to pick ourselves apart, or compare to others. More than likely there will always be things we don't like about ourselves. We can always improve, but we should also learn to love ourselves even with imperfections otherwise we'll never find true peace and happiness. It's up to us to develop that mental toughness and give ourselves permission to accept ourselves despite what anyone else thinks about us. Good luck on your journey! Luck rely has nothing to do with it. But I wish you well!!! I know you can do it! Keep trying different things and ask questions, adjust as you need to. ,, Believe in yourself!
22 May 21 by member: bearnoggin
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Praying for all of us to be strong, intelligent, & good looking all ways...Amen
22 May 21 by member: Slow Meta
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Glad you are here, Donniemae. We will get there together.
22 May 21 by member: Draglist
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I am glad that you are here Donniemae. Many can resonate with your experience. I remember looking in the mirror and thinking- I’m in there somewhere! This is a supportive group and you know how to call on God. Blessings on your journey! ☀️
22 May 21 by member: LISfifty
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22 May 21 by member: LindaBoo5
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Don't be so hard on yourself. Although I know I feel like that sometime. I do best when I take it one step at a time and make small goals (5-7 pounds a month, maybe 3-5 pounds). Praying helps too
22 May 21 by member: Fritzy 22
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I'm with you and praying that God will lift us all up!! ❤
22 May 21 by member: PnutsGma
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