laurenwisswell82's Journal, 30 March 2014

Now look my lovely friend. Less than 48 hours ago you were wetting a garment which was supposed to be dry and you wreaked of trepidation. Now you want it over and done with and can't wait to get in there. Well, a change indeed but so nice a change makes me so proud of you. xoxox 

lol oh im still wetting my pants over having surgery make no mistake about that lol i just know that without going through it i will never be able to accomplish my goal weight due to basically being planted to either the couch or the bed because its too painful to get up and keep moving. but my opinions of the whole process in which i will be unconscious yet again while having my guts ripped open do not comfort me anymore now than it did when i had the first 6 surgeries...some things just dont get easier with practice lol 

Darling Friend, you are talking to a man who died TWICE during surgery and knew absolutely nothing about it. The only thing I experienced was my ribs were sore nothing else. You have survived before and you will survive again even if for the sole reason of....ONLY THE GOOD DIE YOUNG.....lol  

lol heeeeeeyyyy lol