wallisrox's Journal, 25 March 2014

Well, today is playing out as one of the worst days I've had in a while. My boyfriend and I have broken up. We have been together for 4 years, and it's a weird concept. I just want to bawl my eyes out, but unfortunatley, I have to work a full 8 hr shift before I can let go of some of this pent up saddness. I just wish things could be different.
I got a lovely letter from the electric company that my electricity will be shut off tomorrow until April 5 (when I get paid). I have called, and alas, there is no solution but to pay them $400 by tomorrow. Uhhh, yeah, I have that just laying around. It would help if my ex had a job, but I screwed myself on that one when I have been paying for his burden for the past year.
Wow, I really can't take all of this at once, and I just want to curl up into a ball until I can come out and have the sun shine on me, I need to have some relief from this stress. And not just an escape, like working out, or eating, or talking to friends, but actual financial releif.
This is more of a subconcious chain of thought that I have not vented anywhere but here.
I really just don't know what to do anymore.

Diet Calendar Entry for 25 March 2014:
1000 kcal Fat: 53.00g | Prot: 33.00g | Carb: 97.00g.   Lunch: Hardee's 1/3 lb Cheeseburger, Hardee's Natural Cut French Fries (Small). more...

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Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear. When it rains, it definitely pours. You always have support here! I hope everything gets better for you soon <3 
25 Mar 14 by member: PepperMill
You poor thing :( that sounds horrific. We're all here for you although we can't fix the financial hopefully we can all make you feel a little better. *cyber cuddle* don't give up we're all routing for you :) 
25 Mar 14 by member: Loociieemoo
Hugs to you. It will get better. Know it. Believe it. 
25 Mar 14 by member: 2ManyCurves
Hugs to you! The sun will shine on you again. Keep your head up. Things will get better and we are all here to support you. 
25 Mar 14 by member: springskinny
Thank you so much for the supporting comments. I really don't know where else to turn but here. You are all such a wonderful support system. I will be ok, I just want to breathe easy again. I am really just worried about not having power, that is going to be challenging to do my school work when I am in candle light, but it will be ok. I just have to keep telling myself that. 
25 Mar 14 by member: wallisrox
things will get better, hang in there 
25 Mar 14 by member: wholefoodnut
You can make it through this! I feel similarly about finances. That's why I'm trying so hard to get a degree. Perhaps you could tell your partner how you feel exhausted from carrying his burden. He may be more sympathetic than you expect!  
25 Mar 14 by member: Babalon
I know it all seems very overwhelming at the moment, but it is always our resistance to what is that causes all the suffering. Sounds like you're better off in the long run without having your ex's burdens on top of yours. The electricity can feel like a big cloud over your head, but there are candles, and lots of places with wifi for a few days. Kind of like camping... :-) The relief from stress is always right there when we just let go of how be believe things are supposed to be, and relax into the acceptance of the reality of the moment. Reality is always kinder than our thoughts about it. When we just let go and allow life to take us where it always will, things open up in ways one couldn't imagine. There are infinite possibilities - give your attention to the ones you want to see happen! Go ahead and vent until you can relax into what is. Intending the highest good for you and all concerned! <3 <3 <3  
25 Mar 14 by member: Paleodiva
Very sorry for your situation! Keep your chin up and your head in the game, it will get better it always does.  
25 Mar 14 by member: Annabelle3117
Just hang in there! Every gray cloud has a silver lining.Just remember to take care of yourself in this time of crisis.You definitely have support here. 
25 Mar 14 by member: fatpolice
I'm so sorry; I feel your pain; it'll get better! 
25 Mar 14 by member: Tulipgirl6
I am so sorry that you are in pain. I've been there..and I'm here for you. Take care of yourself.  
25 Mar 14 by member: Tidygirl
breathe...it will get better promise  
25 Mar 14 by member: laurenwisswell82
there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you can look at it this way your tunnel just got shorter as you have gained money that you would have put out for his burdens. 
25 Mar 14 by member: Abbytown
You don't face anything in life that you can't handle and come out stronger for going through. You'll wake up a stronger person, able to handle more than you ever thought you could. Better and worse are often subjective. It's life. Life is tough. But you can evolve to match it, and come out stronger than ever. 
25 Mar 14 by member: rob92183
There are always bumps in the road. You have a long journey ahead and this bump my rattle you, but it won't stop you from moving on! You can do it! 
25 Mar 14 by member: Sheanaj
Very sorry to hear about your break up, and that financial woes are making things worse as well. You are strong and will get through this hard time and come out better for it. I do hope the journey is short and that things improve soon.  
26 Mar 14 by member: megmonster
I'm so sorry :( I know what it's like to be at both ends of that stick, and I can guarantee you that things can only get better from here on out. And if anything, you'll come out a stronger person for it. Stick to your guns, have a glass of wine, and look for something that makes you laugh. It's so cliche, but laughter can really be the best medicine sometimes. And a good cry, let it all out - volcanoes eventually erupt, you should get that out of the way as soon as possible. Good luck x 
26 Mar 14 by member: Tamzen
You will be OK! Each day brings about a change. Let the healing begin. Work on you and get cute. So when you see him, he will be begging to get back with you and you just turn your head and walk away (out of love, let someone else take care of him). w 
05 Apr 14 by member: laydeedonrae

     
 

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