I'm having a weird day today, I don't know how to describe it. I'm kind of dwelling on the past but not to the extent that I can. It's not really bothering me as much as kind o just making me angry. (I usually internalize everything and turn it to self disgust.) I'm ashamed that I let myself gain weight, I was maintaining between 148-141 for months and constantly crash dieting which alongside the holidays and depression lead to some major binge eating and major weight gain. I guess I need to stop dwelling on what I don't have and feel so lucky for what I do have. If it was only that easy. Well, I'll just work towards making tomorrow a better/more productive day. I did get 100 on the little fatsecret quiz on this site, which did give me a tiny mood boost for a bit:) If I could only use all the info I have stored in this little brain to motivate my body we'd be unstoppable!
Diet Calendar Entry for 20 January 2011:
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1678 kcal
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Fat: 49.91g | Prot: 70.86g | Carb: 250.22g.
Breakfast: Simply Fruit Apricot, Banana, Nature's Pride 12 Grain Bread, Silk Creamer, Morningstar Farms Veggie Sausage, Coffee, Egg. Lunch: Cheese Pizza (Frozen, Cooked). Dinner: Sargento Mozzarella, Ziti, Green Giant Spinach. Snacks/Other: Sprinkles, Dairy Queen Choc, Skim Milk, Fiber One Honey Cluster. more...
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